After coming home from visiting Toms family we decided just to watch movies and cuddle. Hanging out with his family went super well even though I was so scared at first. His mom and I clicked from the moment I met her. Nikki is one of the most down to earth ladies I know. As soon as she saw me she embraced me in a hug. We talked for so long about Tom and the randomness stuff. Tomorrow I might go with her to Zumba while Tom sleeps in. Zumba is Nikkis thing
I also had such funny conversations with paddy , Harry and Sam. They'd definitely make great brother in laws one day
Sam told me lots of secrets about Tom, like that after texting me for the first time he dreamt about me. Like how cute is that ?!?
The day with the Holland family was just such a great time. Seeing Tom with his family and enjoying himself made me so happy.
"Baby" I heard Tom mumble as he pulled me closer to him on the bed
"Sorry, I was just thinking"
"Thinking about what?"
"Just about you and your family, I hope you know I really do love them" I told him
"And they love you my love" he said while looked at me, "am I your first boyfriend?" he asked while moving his hand down my waist
"Nope" I replied while popping the P, "why do you ask that?"
"Just because, I was just wondering"
"I've had two other boyfriends before you"
"Did you ever do stuff with them?" He said but then added "wait no don't tell me I don't wanna have that image of you doing stuff with other guys in my head" he said while he covered his face with his hands
"Well I'm still a virgin if that answers your question but no I am not a saint either" I replied and tried to move his hands
He finally took his hands off and chuckled, "well why didn't you ever.. do it?" He asked and looked at me more seriously
"I just never felt like Shawn or jack or were the right ones. I mean I know I did sexual stuff with them but it never got to the point where I felt 100% comfortable with them" I replied honestly
"But they never tried to force themselves on you right" he asked as he stiffened up which led me to see he was worried
"No no never not them"
"Not them?" He asked confused
"At a party in my senior year I was making out with a guy and he tried to force himself on me. He didn't succeed in ever actually raping me but he tried. My friend Josiah walked in took him off but after that I never felt the same" I said and sighed. Talking about that night was never easy for me and I never got away with it without crying. As I looked back at Tom I knew I had tears in my eyes. Seeing his face just made me cry even more.
"Baby it's okay, I'm here" he said and held me. We just laid there for while as he held me until I had no tears left. When Tom seen I was calming down he asked, "did you ever report him?"
"Well my friend beat him up but I never told the police. I was kind of tipsy so I just thought they wouldn't have believed me"
"If we ever go to ur home town and I see him I'll beat the shit out of him" Tom said
"It's okay it's over with Tom, we're past that now"
"It's not okay Indi. He should have never even tried to force you to do anything. No means no. He's such a piece of shit. It's your body and he should've respected that"
"I know it's not right, but I'm never gonna see him again. Plus I'm yours now and I know I'll never go through that again" I replied and smiled
"Yes please know I'd never try to make you uncomfortable or ever force you to do anything you didn't wanna do"
"I know Tom"
"Good, because you're my baby forever" he replied and kissed the top of my head while I shut my eyes
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6 stars for an update my loves! I hope you all had a great day/night! Also comment how ur feeling about the book so far <3
