Indigo
Tonight everyone left to go shopping but Tom and I stayed behind. He had wanted to go swimming & I needed a tan so it was perfect. We stayed outside for what seemed forever until we decided to have a movie night. So Tom took a shower while I gathered all the snacks.
I walked the basket with all the food over to my bed as I waited for Tom. I knew that he'd take forever though because he loves taking long showers & he also loves my lotion, a weird combination I know.
"Indigo" he said causing me to look up at him and he dried his hair with his towel & smiled
"Ten years later and you're finally out" I said as he plopped on the bed. "You know I like my showers" Tom replied and shrugged.
"Maybe you're secretly a girl" I told him and raised a eyebrow. He looked shocked and laughed and said, "really? Well if you think so I can show you I'm not" he said pointing to his grey sweatpants.
Which caused me to laugh and hit his hand before saying "I'm good thank you".
"Stop lying already" he said and winked
Which caused me to roll my eyes and giggle.
"Which movie do you wanna watch?" I asked
"A scary one"
"You pick then, I'm too lazy" I said and gave him the controller
"You just don't wanna watch a scary movie, you're a baby"
"Yeah Noah centineos baby" I said knowing that it would cause a reaction out of Tom
"Oh shut up" he said and pulled me down with him, "Noah centineo ain't shit".
"I was kidding stop being mean" I said and laughed. "Fine" Tom said before putting on the movie
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I woke up around two in the morning, why? I don't know but I couldn't fall back asleep. Tom was right next to me since he'd been sleeping in my bed most nights. It wasn't weird to me, I'd like to feel him right by me as long as I could. I knew he had to go back to London in a couple of weeks which made me sad. It'd be different with him gone.
Before meeting Tom I didn't have a boyfriend, well I've never had one to begin with. No boy had ever caught my attention like he had. But I don't think I've ever caught any one else's either. I was quiet in school, i usually hung out with laura and Bianca. Then of course Shawn and jack. I almost dated Shawn but he started dating this girl named Camilla. I won't lie I was hurt. I cried for a week. Im a big baby I know, but it was my first heartbreak. He was the first one to make me feel wanted. Until Tom of course.
But I don't even know if Tom has feelings for me. I mean how could he? I'm not that ugly but there's prettier girls out there. I don't find myself attractive, I just think I'm normal.
I have zero curves, I'm only 100 pounds and I wouldn't say I have big boobs. Which is the opposite of what guys want. So when Tom said I wasn't his type I freaked out. That night I cried for ten minutes. Just ten minutes. I told myself I was a bad bitch and I couldn't cry over him. I've been trying to work on loving myself but it's hard. I can't even love myself so I don't know how Tom would.
While he's been here I've come to the conclusion I may have feelings for him. He just makes things better. His personality is gold. He has this way to make any negative situation into a positive one. He also loves cooking, which is good for me since I'm horrible at it. Then one direction, he'll actually sing one direction with me. What a man I know.
His dimples when he laughs make me wanna grab his face and kiss him. Or when he's thinking about something too much he'll scrunch his nose.
Tom is literally the definition of the perfect guy. Sometimes I wonder if he feels the same way. I've almost told him I had feelings but I get scared each time. There's a part of me that thinks he wants to kiss me and then theres another where I think I'm delusional. I don't think I am. I'm just confused, So he just needs to kiss me already.
I felt his grip on me tighten which snapped me out of my thoughts
"Indigo" he sleepily mumbled
"Yes Tom" I replied back
"Why are you awake"
"I can't fall back asleep" I told him as he sat up and rubbed his eyes
"you should've woke me up too, so you'd have company" he said before pulling me by him which caused me to laugh
"I wanted to let you sleep" I said as I looked down at him as he yawned
"Being with you is better than sleeping"
I looked at him and laughed, "better than sleeping? Stop lying" i said as he raised his eyebrows.
"Who said I was lying" he questioned, "Me" I simply replied back and shrugged
"Well indi, I'm not"
"Can you not say things like that" I told him as I looked down at the blanket
"Say things like what" he asked confused
"Things that'll lead me on" i said as he grabbed my chin pulling my face back up to make eye contact with him. Saying that caused Tom to laugh, which now left me confused
"Darling, You think I'd lead you on?" He asked which caused me to shrug before saying, "I just like you a lot Tom" I mumbled
Tom looked at me, he didn't say anything for a good five seconds until he moved closer to me & whispered in my ear "Well the feelings mutual indi". When he said that to me I didn't know how to react. I just looked at him and smiled until he pulled my face close to his and kissed me.
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I know this is short and sweet but I hope you enjoy !<3 8 stars for next update ☺️
