'All in: It's All Or Nothing' Dream SMP

Chapter 2: They still love you.

Kinoko Kingdom: Feral Boys' house.

Quackity POV

I love their kisses, I love their embraces, I love Karl's laugh, I love Sapnap's words of love. I love them.
I feel loved, I feel happy and I feel safe. And George's hug and his whispered words just made me smile.

George- 'See...? They still love you. They went out of their way for you, because they care.' He whispered while he hugged me.

I just smiled. I could see Sapnap and Karl also smiling, but I know they didn't hear and were only mirroring me. I noticed that over time me started coping each other's behaviors, coping one another's laughter, smiling when another does, sometimes we can just look and the other two will know what's going through our mind without words... I love it so much. I love them, I love my fiancés, I love Karl, I love Sapnap and I know they love me. George is also such a good friend to all of us, if it weren't for him, he might of broken up at some points in time. It's nice.

Pandora's Vault, Main Cell

Dream POV
Tw// Su!c!dal Thoughts, Self h@rm thoughts, Self h@rm-cuts/stabbing/etc. Intrusive Thoughts/self-degrading. Blood/gore described.

It's quiet... well for the most part, the noises are there... I'm so used to them that I basically can't hear them... I don't really notice them... I haven't had any visits besides Quackity... that asshole has been beating me up, he says he wants the Revival Book. I burnt it, I just know it by memory... there's a copy, but it's not in this world... But I refuse to give it or what I know, otherwise they'll kill me because they would have no use for me... I don't want to die... I want to get out... to see George and Sapnap, to see my dear mother Puffy and my brother Foolish. I know I said things that may hinted that I don't care... but I do, I just can't risk them getting hurt because of me.

I think Puffy may know the truth... but I don't know if others do... I lost track of time because Tommy burnt the clock that was supposed to replace the old one when he was stuck here... I killed Tommy, then brought him back not too long after... but he was gone again and Sam was treating me worse... I think he treats what happened as an excuse for it... he's gone mad and corrupt because of this place... I honestly may be losing myself too... I don't know how long it's been... but Sam has not dropped my food for what seems like days... it's not the first time... but this time it longer... and I'm starting to get really hungry....

(Tw: Start)
Do they care...? Do they still remember me...? Or have they locked or burnt all my things by now...? I turned around to face the wall of lava... I was in bed, I felt sick from hunger... so I didn't want to move from the bed... I ran out of paper to write... so I don't have anything to do... I must be so boring to watch on the camera, I'm barely moving these days... I stare at the lava; it would be easy to just jump in and use my last life... I then stare at my quill... would be so easy to just stab my arm with it... how am I allowed to have this...? I stare at the wall; I want to just smash my head against it until I can't think anymore...

I finally sit up, taking my quill and looking at it... I wonder if Sam is watching the camera... So, I look at the camera, then back at the quill.... Without thinking twice, I ran the empty quill on my arm, slowly adding pressure... until, I began to cut and bleed... It stung... but I found some comfort in it being controlled by me. I mindlessly continued; my arms were covered in cuts once I was done... I watched the blood drip, it slightly calmed me. I stood up, barely being able to stand... I was slightly getting light headed... I used the wall to support me... and then noticed the camera move... Sam was now watching for sure, probably had noticed that I finally stood up... I slightly began gently banging my head on the wall... time was ether slowed, speed up or completely stopped... I don't know anymore, before I knew it I was banging my head real hard... I was bleeding more and it seemed the camera had stopped moving... Sam had left...? I can't be sure... I fell backwards, hit my head again... I couldn't see, everything was blurry and slowly turning black... I think I began screaming, I can't remember... I couldn't hear it if I did... I began clawing at myself.... I saw the glow of the lava fade... but I then blacked out...