I was lying on the bed and scrolling with Instagram, everyone is happy with their bodies, wearing swimsuits,tank tops, shorts. And me? I CAN'T WEAR ANYTHING OF THIS. I CAN'T WEAR SWIMSUITS CAUSE I HAVE A BIG BELLY AND STRETCH MARKS ON MY LEGS, I CAN'T WEAR A TANK TOPS CAUSE MY HANDS AREN'T THAT STRONG. I look in the mirror and see the trash. (YOU BITCH! YES YOU! YOU'RE NOT TRASH. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL THE WAY YOU ARE. I JUST NEEDED THIS FOR BOOK💅🏼❤)
I don't even know why Finn chose me,of all the girls in the world, he chose me. He probably chose me out of compassion.
But I'll change that,he will LOVE my new body...he will love me.
I'll start today.
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My mom called me to dinner, I just took it to my room. I was hungry, but I can't give up on the first day.
I can do it.
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Today is the fourth day I didn't eat. I had to eat chips while watching TV with dad, because he would know something was going on. I would never reject chips. After movie i went throw up.
I can do it.
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Today is sixth day i haven't eat today is also day I have a picnic with Finn, I have to eat at least something, because he'll ask.
....
"Hi bubba" he said and gave me a kiss in the hair
"Hi baby" "Ready to go?" "Yeah,but I hope you didn't take a lot of food cause I just ate. And you don't eat much." "Oh,come onn. I know you love food. Ofc i took more" He just said I eat a lot. No more. This encourages me even more. Thank you baby,you will not be ashamed of me anymore. I will be pretty, and skinny.
I can do it.
...
"Come on,baby. Eat something,i worked hard for this" "ok,fine" I bit into the cake, and I felt sick.We were in the park, I ran to the tree and throwed up. I couldn't put a single bite of cake in me. "Baby!Baby! Are you ok?!" "Finn? Can we just go home please?" I asked with tears in my eyes. "Ofc,baby. Are you ok?You didn't have to go when you are sick." he said
....
Finn's POV:
I knew something was wrong,she was skinnier,paler,she had dark circles under her eyes,her cheekbones were more visible. She wasn't sick,this was something different.I agreed with her mom that I'll stay for dinner...
..dinner..
She was just plaing with her food,she didn't eat a single teaspoon. She just drank water.
"Y/N?" she just hummed "It's really good.Why don't you eat?" "Not hungry"she said without looking at me,and continued to play with food.
I just sadly sighed.
..in her room..
I lay on her bed and then I heard throwing up.I run to her bathroom,at saw her crying by the toilet. "Finn? Am I pretty right now?" she asked with tears rolling down her cheeks
"What? What do you mean 'right now'?" I asked, and immediately sat down next to her.
"I didn't eat like a week.
I wasn't pretty,but now i feel pretty.So am I pretty right now?" my eyes widened, i was confused, Y/N never asked me about things like that, I thought she knew. That she is gorgeous
"Why did you do that?" I asked with teary eyes
"Y/N you were always beautiful not pretty"
"You're just sain' that cause you're mu boyfriend"
"No I'm not saying cause i'm your boyfriend" I stood up and picked her up with me. I put her in front of the mirror and I was behind her.
"Look. You.Are.Gorgeous.Y/N. And you're all is mine. Because i love you how you are baby. I love your thighs,they're so soft.I ran my fingers over her thighs "I love your belly, I love how I lie on it,meanwhile you starts playing with my hair." Now my hands were on her belly, and I kissed her shoulder. "I love your botty and stretch marks that you have on it." I turned her to me, tears of happiness on her cheeks, and a smile as well. "I don't care what are people saying. Cause you're mine and I LOVE YOU."
she dug her head into my chest and cried. I hugged her tightly and my eyes started to water too.
"I l-love yo-you Finn" she said in a shaky voice
"I love you too,baby. Never do this ever again"
A/N: IMPORTANT:
You.are.beautiful.
I don't care if you're skinny,chubby or whatever.
You're queen,and nobody can't tell you that you're not.
Because E V E R Y B O D Y is.
💅🏼💕
And also sorry for mistakes.
Luw you.✌🏼
