Poems from when the big sad hits

Getting Bad agian (December 2020)

I knew it was gettin bad again when I could only eat half a bowl of ramen
I knew it was getting bad again when it felt like hours passed by like minuets and days at the same time
I knew it was bad when I wasn't scared of death at 12
I knew it was bad when I started staying in my room all day
I knew it was getting bad again when I went back to my safe comfort series
I knew it was getting bad again when I had the perpetual knot in my stomach
I knew it was bad when I stopped being able to cry
I knew it was bad when I just wanted to cry for days
I knew it was getting bad again when I reinvested in my emotional support kpop boys and it was the first one I had genuinely smiled in a week
I knew it was getting bad again when my through felt like it was closing up
I knew it was getting bad again when my brain is screaming that nobody cares
I know it's getting bad again because I no longer find joy in the little things
I know it's getting bad again because I just want cuddles and sleep
I know it's getting bad again because I'm constantly exhausted
I know it's getting bad again because it feels like my mind is full of Seltzer water and everything's fizzy
I know it's getting bad again because I can never seem to catch my breath
I know it's getting bad again because I have clean clothes but I wear the same shirt and pants for a week

~Wolfie AKA StayBias_wrecked