Rantaro Amami Oneshots

R⃨a⃨n⃨t⃨a⃨r⃨o⃨ x˟˚ 𝗦𝗸𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗿!𝗥𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿

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Requested by @listen_to_the_voices
Also heads up

This is a transgender male, (fixed it-) which means she wants/is (ùwú) to be a he (I'm really bad with this huh-) reader request so ✨different✨
The reader also has dysphoria -
Me being me I searched that up and:

"Dysphoria is a profound state of uneasiness or dissatisfaction. It is the opposite of euphoria (a feeling of happiness, care free etc.). In a psychiatric context, dysphoria may accompany depression, anxiety, or agitation."

This is it in full context

There is also gender dysphoria, which is applying to the reader.

With that being said, I guess all the above is a trigger warning.

Aaaaaaannnnnnndddd 𝘦 𝘯 𝘫 𝘰 𝘺...

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I looked towards the buildings, wind blowing my hair into my face slightly.

The only upside I guess is that I'm riding my skateboard right now.

Well...not the only upside.

"H-Hey. Y/N..? I feel like I'm gonna fall off..."

"Haha! Rantaro, your balance sucks!" I kicked the end of skateboard up in the air and in landed in my hand.

"Yeah, there's no way I'm getting the hang of this..."

"Better than walking everywhere. You don't even like cars." I teased.

"Hey. I'm an environmental person and you know that." He pouted before smiling.

"Yup! It's why I love you swo mwuch Wantwaro~" I stuck my tongue out at him while holding his arm to keep his practically non-existent balance.

"Hehe, love you too N/N~ But seriously, it's impressive how your able to do this."

"Oh please! My older brother just taught me! If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have gotten here. He gave up so much, his looks, he even dyed his hair white and got a bunch of tattoos! He couldn't get out of those businesses though..."

"Y/N..." Rantaro shakily got off the skateboard.

"This belonged to him. He's so cool. I...always wanted to be like him, I never wanted to get involved in those businesses that only cared for his skills. And then...he just...went missing..."

I took a deep breath before continuing. Once again I'm venting to my boyfriend.

"I...Y'know how you've got your little sisters? I've got tons of siblings too. If it wasn't for you...I'm scared of what would've happened to them. They...need their older brother. But...sometimes..."

I paused and bit my lip. It's not like I wanted to. It was just on impulse. I couldn't get the words out of my mouth. They were stuck.

"Y/N, you are...the bravest, most incredible person I've ever met. Dealing with your brother going missing, your little siblings, your talent. Everything. You're so strong, just because you feel like crying from time to time doesn't make you weak. It makes you human, you know that, right? ...No. Even if you don't, I'll be right next to you, I'll be there with you to remind you of that."

I felt myself being pulled into a hug. I...felt...panicked still...

Because...I'm glad Rantaro said all that but...

School...some people accidentally call me (old name or O/N ) from time to time. At this point, it's hard to assume it's not on purpose. I keep getting teased that I'm a girl. That...I'm not supposed to be a boy.

I...don't know what to be anymore...A skateboarder, a sister, a brother, a boyfriend, a girlfriend, I don't know anymore..!

I thought I was transgender but, what if I really am wrong? Faking it like everyone keeps saying? I don't think I'm doing for attention. What if I am?

I gripped Rantaro and pulled him closer to me.

His words were touching, but I just feel more panicked.

I can't tell him anything. I already told him that I was transgender, and he said he'd just loved me in general and that it was ok. That he wasn't going to leave me.

My little siblings, while confused, fully accepted it and started calling me my new name.

But, the rest of the world just doesn't...seem...to...

'Y/N...? Whose that? Aren't you O/N? Eh? Why'd you change your gender?'

I wasn't comfortable with it.

'Oh...ok...That's..cool then..!'

...Really..? You don't dislike me?

'...No I support you but...I don't really know any Y/N sooo, in a sense...we aren't friends..?'

Huh? B-But I-

'Sorry! I'm not transphobic though! It's just...I don't think it's exactly gonna work..."

I cried. I cried then and I'm crying now.

Strangely enough, there was no one here. Well, of course there wasn't. This isn't exactly a very popular place to go...

That's why I like it here. No one could judge me and there was less chance of me...judging myself...?

I'm already doing that. I...can't be a real male can I...?

———-Rantaro POV———

Oh...is he having another dysphoria day..?

Did I say something? How do I get him to stop crying.?

I held onto him and softly brushed through his short messy hair.

"Hey...Y/N. You are my loving boyfriend and I absolutely adore you. Whether or not you're physically male or not, you want to be seen as one. O/N...doesn't exist anymore.
It's an older version of yourself that you've grown out of.
Besides, I'd love both anyway, because it's you Y/N. Your Y/N L/N, the Ultimate Skater. I love how you always look so happy doing things like this, even by yourself. I love that you can be independent despite being through things no one should have to go through. You...can be any gender. Because...I need you to know regardless of any changes you make, I'll still love you, and you can tell me anything. Even if you don't want to, I'll still be waiting for you partner." I whispered it softly.

Softly into their ear and softly kissed the forehead.

The shaking stopped and the cries went into sniffles.

At this point, Y/N was lying on my chest.

"Warm. Thanks Rantaro." I saw them form a small smile up at me.

"Anytime, anywhere." I smiled back.

And then I realised we were still on a bench.

"Oh, do you want to continue hugging back at home?"

"Heh, alright. Again, thanks. For helping me...with a lot of things." He looked down with another gentle smile.

A peaceful silence on the way back. A moment filled with bliss. A moment that I could treasure forever.

Well, every moment with him I can treasure.

I only love him that much.

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AHAHHHH I HOPE I DID THAT RIGHT-
Also also for anyone who has this, you have the right to chose your gender, sexuality etc.

No one also has the right to tell who you can and can't be :)

From Maro
^^