Fallen Between Book Two - Melodie's Whispers

Apologise

Roland walks out, Jax looking at him.

"Is she okay?" He stands glancing towards the door.

Roland laughs. "Are you joking? They could have taken your fucking son Jax. Be lucky they wanted her and waited." Roland pushes past him and walks down. Standing he cooks while everyone else searches the house and watches the CCTV to ensure no one else in the house. Putting the plates on the table he walks upstairs.

They can expect her to lock herself in a bedroom all day. Knocking he waits. "It's me sugar." Roland knocks again not missing the deadly daggers Jax is throwing in his direction. He watches as the door opens, Melodie holding Lucas.

"Come eat downstairs, I will sit with you. They don't need four people checking." Taking Lucas he walks downstairs with Melodie following, sitting they stay quiet and eat. Roland shaking his head, she is still freaking out clearly. Clearing things away they sit in the living, his eyes on her. "You okay?"

Melodie glances up at him. "I'm fine."

Roland laughs. "Well you still can't lie. You're clearly not fine, did you get hurt?" 

Melodie's head shakes in disagreement. "No, even if I had it wouldn't matter Roland. It is the fact Lucas could be gone. If we're right and it is Oscar's dad, what was to stop them walking out with Lucas? Me, I don't care about. Seeing them hold Lucas though." 

Roland moves towards her, his arm wrapping around her. 

"I could kill Jax. He was told to sleep, and I could tell he hadn't. Because he was so fixed on being awake when they showed we could have lost our son." 

"Cut him a break Mel, he is already beating himself up pretty bad." Turning they look at Oscar.

"You would say that, you two always stick up for each other." Roland shakes his head.

"I agree, we all fuck up in life. We all fucked up on missions plenty of times, this is no different except it is his own kid." Diogo sits down. "House is clear, the second guy bolted after he saw Roland jump out of bed."

"Right, and because of him anything could have happened to Lucas." Roland looks at Diogo annoyed.

"It didn't though, they were in that room for nearly two hours. The guy literally sat in the corner holding him as he slept. Lucas is fine, you fucked yourself Diogo, she nearly died, a few more minutes and she would have. So cut him some slack." Diogo walks out, the room falling quiet again as no one talks.

Hours passing by before Roland walks through to the kitchen, the sound of him cooking now spreading around the room as Oscar and Melodie stay sitting, not talking. Melodie's eyes on Lucas, she panicked, anyone else would have.

"Go see him Mel, I will watch Lucas. Even if you scream and shout at him first, go see him." Oscar looks at her, watching as she walks out. 

Walking upstairs she finds Jax sitting on the bed, clearly wide awake and not sleeping. Melodie walks further in the room, Jax standing and walking towards the door to leave. Melodie's hand stopping him.

"Where are you going?" 

He laughs quietly. "Out of your way and giving you space. I saw your face baby you don't want me near you right now for fucking up, that is why I stayed away all day." 

"Hiding won't help. You fucked up Jax. So bad we could have woken this morning and Lucas be gone. All because what? You want to be there when they walk in, you want to be the man who notices and gets there first. Look around you Jax, there is four of you! You can't expect to be the top man all the damn time." 

Jax looks at her derisively. "You think that is why? You really think I care more about coming across as the best one, as the one who takes top place than I do making sure you're okay? What the hell baby? It has nothing to do with that, or my damn ego wanting to win! Being awake helps, it helps me relax because I am awake and know no one can sneak in the bedroom and shoot you while I sleep!" 

"They couldn't! Come on Jax, someone was watching and would have known as soon as they entered the basement." 

Jax looks at her. "Which I trust them to do, but part of me still thought what happens if they fall asleep? If they think they have time to go grab a quick snack or a drink?" 

"You fell asleep Jax, no one else. You say you trust them but then stay awake to be sure? I was hurt because they could have taken Lucas Jax, I am over that now. The fact you say you trust them but then do that which shows you don't hurts. They are basically our family." Hell Oscar will be hurt, they all will if they know he doesn't trust them.

"I'm sorry, okay. I trust them baby, I swear I do, it is my mind that can't stop thinking, what if. I'm sorry, I realised when I heard they had Lucas how much I fucked up. I don't want to lose you and Lucas baby. Yet all I seem to be doing is pushing you away from me and closer to everyone else." 

Melodie stands owly-eyed. "You really think this pushed me away? Jax I am not leaving, ever. This hurt me, it upset me, and scared me. Not in the slightest part though did it make me consider running to someone else." 

A snicker escapes his mouth. "You and Roland, you went from hating him to some how him comforting you again! What the hell am I meant to think?" 

"Think what you want Jax, but to assume I am slowly walking away from you and into some other guys arms is wrong. I was so sure Oscar would be dead, I flipped Jax. Some how Roland made me come back to earth. Today was nothing like that. I ran into his room as it was the closest one with someone in. Nothing more."  Melodie stands looking at him. "Roland isn't an issue Jax, neither is Oscar or Diogo, or any other man. This is about the fact they are your team and family and part of you doesn't trust them fully?" 

"I trust them baby, I don't trust his dad, I don't trust Mark. Not in the sense he will lie, but more he will be told only part of the story, then you get hurt. I considered everything, that they will send two guys in through the tunnels, but also through another way. Then we wouldn't know." 

Melodie's head nods in understanding. "Nothing can change it Jax. We take the information we are given and act on it, not on what our mind tells us is happening or going to happen. Promise me, if before this is sorted we get told the same again you will sleep Jax." 

Nodding he looks at her, sure he is agreeing but part of him knows he will stay awake. Moving he hugs her. "I fucked up, I am sorry baby, I love you and Lucas, I realised how badly I fucked up. I wouldn't stay alive, there is no way this body would be walking around if you and Lucas were gone, I would end things quickly." 

"We're never leaving Jax, ever." Her arms wrap around him.

"I didn't mean if you left Melodie. If you left I would fight to win you back, to get your back. I meant if you died, I wouldn't stay alive." Melodie's head nods, she can understand that, if she didn't have Lucas or Jax, what is there left to live for? Nothing really.