Rough Day

Six - Hearteyes

When we arrive back at the apartment, I'm out of breath. Then, I realize I've just been holding it all in. I'm terrified of the infinite possibilities of how this will all turn out.

What if I say something wrong and he forces me out into the streets?
No, I think to myself. He's too kind to do something that selfish and heartless.

When he turns around to me, all the worry in the world heavy on his face, everything I'd been thinking about and all rational thought flies out of my mind.

I want nothing more than to embrace him, yet I hold back.

I feel emboldened by my lack of rationale, as much sense as that makes. I want to be honest with him.

"Mark, I know something is bothering you because I... well, sort of eavesdropped on your recording. I'm sorry, I'm just so upset I didn't realize you weren't okay and--"

He laughs. "That doesn't bother me. Its going to be published to all of my viewers tomorrow anyways."

I frown and shift my gaze from him to anywhere else. Of course. What an idiot I am! Worried about nonsense, as always...

Out of the corner of my eye, I see his face soften, like he had hurt me and just realized it. Had he?

"Why don't you ever talk to me about things like this? I know I haven't known you as long as I'd like, but I want to know you better," I say softly. Very softly. I look back at his confused visage. His head is tilted down enough that when he looks at me, its through his eyelashes.

If I'd chanced peering at him any longer, my cheeks would be obviously glowing.

Many quiet minutes pass. The ground, the furniture, even the walls are more palatable to look at than the puzzled man standing not three feet from me.

I've never been able to stomach silence like this! Too many insecure thoughts take ahold of me! I'm scared.

Its now or never! Before I overthink too much and the reality of how selfish I am takes hold!

"Mark," I start so strong. "Please let me be closer to you. I feel so far away from you, I can't stand it." Sigh. Timid mouse.

"What?" He steps closer, closer. My breathing becomes more and more shallow with each step. Is it a dream? "But, I'm right here?" He grabs ahold of my elbows to prove his proximity.

I could die right now, and I'd be alright with it.

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((ayo cliffhanger???!? next ch is probably last! this got way outta hand it was only supposed to be one shot oopsie))