Fadded Memories

Enough is Enough

I can hear the honks of busy cars and trucks, the chatter of people going by and the smell of food they carry around at lunch time.
The food smells amazing as people stroll along by the sea port.
The sun is out shinning with no storms in site on a Friday afternoon.
I have retired from my job and I am also in the middle of finding a new one, I think I will certainly like it more when I find the right one!!!
Before finding myself that new job... I needed to take a long break from everything.

I am about to embark on a journey... a trip of a lifetime, a stress free and relaxing adventure. It is going to be on a Korean Cruise Ship. The Cruise lasts up to 10-13 days, so I chose the 13, but I didn't end up choosing it by myself.
It is a big and beautiful ship. It will hold up to 520 passengers each time it goes out to the mysterious sea to travel.
I just needed some time to myself. I needed my own space to settle down, to unwind from bad thoughts in my mind and to get away from all the negativity... that the world has thrown at me.
It will give me a new start in life, I will feel like I'm cleansed... washed away of everything that built up pressure in my life.

Although there are two problems that I could not get rid of before I wanted to get away.
The two problems ended up being my handsome, smart, and talented big brothers.
I have no parents left. My mother had passed away just recently from a strange flue/virus that she herself only had. While my father skipped town... leaving my brothers and I to fend for ourselves in New Orleans. He has been missing for over 5 years ago. We all tried to look for him, but with no luck we could not find him.
Since then we just had to make due and manage our own lives together.
My parents both were Scotish.

My brothers are named Nathan Crow who is my younger brother and Makail Crow the oldest brother.
Nathan and Makail both outrank me in age. Nathan being 30 years old and Makail being 36 years old. I am only 28 years old. All three of us were adopted by our parents. My mother could not have children at all.
Makail came first and then it was Nathan. I was the last one to get adopted.
Makail was adopted from the Congo and Nathan was adopted from Korea.
I love them both so very equally and get along with them like most siblings do, but in away I feel a closer bond to them than anything else in the world.

Nathan had figured out that I wanted to go away some where.
He had found out about the Cruise on my labtop. I had left it open when I went to do some errands at the stores during a Saturday night. When I came back Nathan was there sitting down on my chair, in my room, on my labtop staring at the screen and he had his arms crossed as well. When he saw that I came back from the stores... he had asked if I was going to go anywhere special. He also asked if I was feeling OK.
Nathan was quiet and didn't speak back. I then peared at my computer that was still opened.
Nathan had given Makail, me and himself an all-together cruise package. The package was the get away for the Korean Cruise that I myself had looked at. It was only suppose to be for me. It was the 10-13 day trip without my consent!!!
It was nice of him to do that, but I really did want to go alone. I did not want my brothers with me at all.
Nathan had told Makail about the trip the following day when it was morning. They were both really excited and were looking forward to it together with me.

To them I am their sister who needed looking after even at my age. They were both worried about me after what had happened at the beginning of the week.