fight the moon for you; remus lupin

{005} • 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗌

"I'm okay Y/n, don't worry about me."

"No, I do worry about you. And I don't know what I did to make you hate me and not want me here. But I care Remus. And I-"

"I don't hate you Y/n," he tried to get up but laid back down. "I could never hate you. I just... you don't know me as well as you might think. And I want to tell you so, so bad. But I'm afraid I will scare you off. And I can't lose you Y/n. And then there is James and-"

"You can't scare me away Remus, and I'm sorry but I just don't like James, there is nothing I can do about that."

"No, that's not it. I get that you can't change that, but that also means that... if James can't even have you... I mean he is the pretty boy here at school. And if he doesn't even have a change then..."

"Remus, I don't care if I'll stay single. Dont worry about that okay?"

Remus pov:
"Yeah, that is totally it. You're right, I'll stop worrying." I mouthed. She sat down on the side of my bed.

Your pov:
"Look Moony, you don't have to tell me. I mean... I would like you to trust me with it, but I understand that you don't. We've only met a few weeks ago." James and Sirius walked in.

"So, friends?" I asked.

"Yeah, friends." He mounted. I put the plate next to him and left to give him some time with his friends. James winked at me when I walked past them and I rolled my eyes.

That boy really doesn't know when to stop. "So you two are friends again." I heard Sirius ask.

-

A few days passed and Remus was still in the hospital wing. No one would tell me how bad it was. When I visited him I could only see a few scratches on his face. The rest of his body was covered in clothes and blankets. I brought him food every evening and talked to him.

When nighttime hit I started overthinking again. What if he will never get better. What if he gets permanent damage.

"Y/n." I looked to the door of our dorm. Lily was standing there. "James wants to talk to you." The said with the disgust in her voice. I walked away from my homework and I got down to the commom room. Lily had followed me.

"Well? Where is he?"
"In their dorm." I sighed and went up the stairs to the boys dorms. I knocked on their door and James opened it.
"I thought you might want to see him." I gave him a weird questioning look.

He opened the door even more and Remus his face showed up. I walked up to his bed and pulled him in a hug.

"As much as I like this, it hurts." Remus whispered. I pulled back and giggled.
"Right, I'm sorry. How are you Remus, I was worried about you."

"Worried? You saw me every day."

"I know, I was just scared something would happen."

"I'm okay love, really." Did he just call me love? I sat down next to him and saw Sirius smirking before walking up to James. They were whispering to eachother and then left. I playfully rolled my eyes and smiled.

"Are you able to come to breakfast tomorrow?" He nodded. I smiled and laid down next to him. His hand lifted but he laid it back down. I picked up his hand as a sigh that whatever he was going to do was okay. He tucked a small strand of my hair behind my ear. I don't know why I did it but I kissed his cheek. "Goodnight Remus."

I stood up seeing his cheeks turn crimson. He touched the spot my lips had touched with his hand and smiled at me. I turned around and left.

Once in my common room I let myself fall down on my soft bed that was covered in red bedsheets and clothes I still had to clean up. I threw the clothes on a chair and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth.

I downed a glass of water and looked at myself in the mirror for a moment. I walked back to my bed thinking about what I just did. Why did I kiss his cheek? What was that about? I put my head in my hands and sighed. I changed into pj's and fell down on my bed. I covered my cold body with blankets and drifted away to sleep.

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