Falling apart (EDITING)

Suffers

Lenas POV

„Theres gonna be nothing but your ashes" Lillian laughs looking down at the suffering hero lying in my arms, her veins glowing in a sick green and her eyes rolling back with her trying to stay strong.
Whimpers leaving her mouth but her soul obviously fighting it.
The pain in her eyes is stronger than any pain I've ever seen them go through before and I can see her struggling to stay awake, she doesn't want me to worry more and it shows.
I caress her face and squeeze her hand tightly „it's okay darling, go to sleep. You deserve it" I whisper and it's like everything around us stopped.
I can't see the kryptonite approaching her anymore, can't see lillians face or hear her nasty laughs.
It's like time stopped when she managed look into my eyes proving that she heard me.
With tears in both our eyes we just look into each other's eyes. No words are needed. No words would ever be able to describe that feeling.
I never thought I'd express a feeling that strong and that without any words. She squeezes my hand and her eyes finally close, one final sigh leaving her lips before she goes completely quiet and I feel my heart skip a beat in my chest, now allowing the tears to spill knowing she's feeling better now.
„Aw is it over already? I was hoping for some more fun"Lillian says stopping the kryptonite blast. I glare at her and slowly put my ear on Karas chest right over her heart just to hear her heart beating reminding me that this isn't over yet. She's alive. But my only way to protect her from more harm is to lie.
„You monster! You killed her! You killed the love of my life!!" I cry out loud, the force in my voice making her stumble back a bit but her Face is keeping that sick smile as she's staring down at Kara proudly „I finally did it" she breathes out happily.
My fake cries are being mixed with actual ones now. I just can't believe she hates my girlfriend that much I mean all she's ever done was to help people like her and that's what shes getting? It's not fair.
I start pretending to be doing some life saving actions on her like compressions i mean I wouldn't be me if I wouldn't even try on saving her.
Making it as realistic as possible by putting my hands on her chest starting to push, ofc not deep. That would just unnecessarily hurt her even more but I need it to look as real as possible so Lillian would believe it at least. I keep the rate of the „compressions" steady Then I put my lips on hers and blow into her mouth twice.
The thought of the fact that I could actually have to do this on her one day is bringing shivers down my whole body.
„Now you're just being hilarious, my dear daughter" Lillian says softly And I can feel her hand on my shoulder „don't fucking touch me" I yell at her and she pulls away, letting me continue my act.
I keep going for like 5 minutes, tears streaming down my face uncontrollably „please" I take her face into my hands „don't leave me" I whisper just loud enough for Hopefully her and Lillian to hear which is causing Lillian to laugh „she already left you, darling. Just look at her there's nothing left you could fight for" I take a moment to actually look at her in detail just to see how dead she actually looks, her lips parted and so pale she could count as a Halloween ghost.
Her breaths aren't visible to see but I could feel it when I got closer to her face.
Worried I listen for a heartbeat again, sighing sadly but being relieved at the same time. It's there. It's beating. I just needed that reassurance.

„Give up on her, Lena. Let her go" Lillian sits down on a chair, staring at me with a smile plastered on her face „we can now be a family again!" family? She'll never be a part of my family.
„I'll never give up on her. You'll never be a part of my family" the anger and sadness in my voice have probably never been this obvious.
I put my hands back on her chest and continue the act.
„Lena she's been dead for over five minutes, let her rest" Lillian sounds annoyed.
„Never" I suddenly feel her finger twitching while I'm going in to put my lips on hers again.
A wave of relief washing over me, she's here. She may not be awake but she'll be. She'll be fine.
I can now hear the heavy door opening with a loud crack and many people gasping before the whole room goes completely silent.
„Lena" I hear a weak voice oh shit it's Alex.
After a few seconds I look up. Oh ofc Lillian Is still staring at me. She knows I would have to signal Alex that this is an act. She would see it. I'm just about to break Alex heart.
I stop the compressions to look at her
„Lena please Tell me thats- thats the clone"
I look down again. Fuck.
„its not" I say before getting back to the compressions.
I hear Alex inhale sharply „you didnt" Alex laughs painfully
„Well if we're being honest, now you have one less problem" Lillian just says out without hesitation.
„You...you killed my sister and make it sound like you did good?!" Alex yells, practically trying to hide the pain she feels but it's there. The pain is clearly to be heard.

I now give her one last breath before pulling her head onto my lap again, letting it rest there while looking up to see Alex staring down at her, a single tear running down her check
„I'll kill you" Alex takes her gun and aims directly at lillians head, ready to pull the trigger.
„Alex, no" as much as I want her to shoot, she has Informations we might need.
Alex slowly turns her head into my direction „we still need the informations from her"
Alex sighs „alright" she's talking into hear earpiece but I can't hear what it is.
„Don't stop, Lena! Get her back!" I sigh
„I've tried for 20 minutes" I see the pain in her face growing stronger as she's starting to talk into hear earpiece again „nia? You J'onn and brainy need to get here fast, it's about Kara" her voice Breaking at the end but she's quick to turn to the men behind her „and you? Beat the hell out of her. Let her suffer and after that get her into a cell, I'll take care of her then"
The guys instantly start attacking her and Alex quickly comes running over to us taking cara softly into her arms „don't do this Kara, don't leave me" she cries out holding her sister
„Check her pulse" I whisper just for her to check „oh my god" she keeps crying „never do this to me ever again" she cries and a second later j'onn and the others arrive through the window.
They all look like they've been crying „we've heard" j'onn says. Nia kneeling down next to her starting to sob even more „she's alive" I whisper and see their faces turn from shocked to relieved.
„She's been attacked with kryptonite, right?" Alex Voice is still shaking.
„Yea she did" j'onn picks Kara up „then we need to get her to the DEO before we actually lose her" he just disappears through the window with Alex also being carried by him.
By now Lillian is looking almost as hurt as Kara but I end up going over to her, kicking her face with my heel causing her to groan in pain before turning to Nia „please get me to Kara" I beg.
„I asked j'onn to come back and get us, it'll be way faster" and as if he heard us he just picks us up and disappears with us through the window as if it was nothing. I can't wait to see her again even tho it's only been a few minutes, I miss her. She has to be okay.

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Hi! Good start into writing again with solid 1405 words for this chapter! Thanks to My_Therapist For the motivation!
See y'all in the next chapter and tysm for your patience! <3