It's Not Me//DT

》16《

The ride home wasn't exactly a ride home. It was a drop off to Ethan and Grayson's house. The car was silent...and awkward. I shouldn't have been angry, but I was slightly. Khalan could have told me. Nothing, that I knew of, was preventing him from telling me.

I refused to speak to him in the car. When Khalan had driven up to Ethan and Gray's house, I got out of the car with them.

Khalan had told me that he was capable of dropping me off, but I had no interest in that.

"I'm capable of walking," I had told him. Plus, I told Ethan we'd talk, so that's what I'd planned to do.

I made sure to tell Grayson that I'd make sure to see him before I left. I think I was ready. Ready to date. To hell with the consequences.

When Ethan and I had walked up to his room, the gates had broken and I had just broken down. It was like I was crying, but I really wasn't.

"Khalan's moving...in a week, and he didn't tell me until a few hours ago today." I sighed and laid down on the floor of his bedroom.

This was all stupid. Why was I angry over this bullshit?

"Oh, that's why everything was so awkward in the car."

I groaned. "Help me, Ethan."

"Why does it matter if he moves? Are you gonna stop being friends with him since he doesn't live near you anymore? As far as I know you guys have been friends for the longest. It shouldn't matter where he lives. If you are worried, then..." Ethan trailed.

I sat up straight. "Then what?" I asked. I stared at him listening to his every word.

"Then maybe you aren't as good of friends than I thought you were," he mumbled.

That made me think. Khalan and I were good friends. We were best friends.

Weren't we?

Maybe, subconsciously I had already known. I would never admit that, no matter how true it was...or wasn't.

Khalan and I were best friends, and I hoped that it'd stay that way forever. But I had to think about the possibility. Ethan could be right.

"Maybe..just maybe you're right. So what, that's it? Years of friendship just over?"

"That's what you have to decide."

I laid back down on the ground. I obviously didn't want that. I would have to be the bigger person. Which wasn't necessarily a bad thing, but I was never a fan.

"Thanks for taking me to Jasmine's mother, and continuing to give me advice about my life even though you literally don't have to."

He slightly smirked, "that's what friends do."

I yawned. "I think I'm gonna go talk to Grayson, and then head out. I'm kind of tired." I stood up and stretched.

"I'll see you, when I see you," Ethan said, slightly waving.

"See you when I see you," I said back.

I walked out of Ethan's room and walked down the hall to Grayson's. I knocked on his door and heard a quiet 'come in.'

"Hey," I leaned on the doorframe of the door.

"Hey."

"I'm gonna ask you something, and you may slap me or hit me, but I want you to think about it, okay?" I was going back to the time he asked to kiss me. The day that I had felt seen.

He smiled and patted his bed, motioning for me to sit next to him.

"Ask away," he scrunched his nose the same way I did "long ago". I put his hand in mine and whatever nerves I had were almost non-existent.