Not That Perfect | JJ Maybank

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Flashback...

Jessica's POV:

As Kiara drives us up the the beach i roll the window down crossing my arms and placing them on the door resting my head on my arms pocking my head out of the window letting the warm breeze flow through my brown hair.

I hear my phone ring from my back pocket it catches the attention of everyone in the van "sorry" I apologize before bringing the phone in front of my face sitting back in my seat 'Aunt Lucy' my phone reads.

I answer the phone bringing it to my ear "hey AJ I'm staying over at Jules' tonight I've left a spare key under the plant pot next to the front door for you" She informs me "One, who is Jules? Two, can my friends stay over?" I ask my aunt "she is my friend and yeah just use protection if they are guy friends" "seriously Lucy I'm not that off the rails" I try say as quietly as possible so it doesn't draw too much attention.

"Anyway have fun but not too much fun if you know what I mean" Lucy says ending the phone laughing at her last comment to me I scoff putting my phone back in my pocket and putting the window back up.

"What was that about?" Pope asks I turn around facing him sat in the back "oh nothing just my aunt" I answer.

"Your aunt reminds you to use protection?" A voice I  recognize as JJs' hearing his comment so close to my ear make me jump slightly.

I look behind my seat and see him leant against the back of it with a smirk on his face "You heard that?" I say to the blond he turns his head to look at me but as he dose are faces become millimeters apart, after a good five seconds of neither of us moving just staring into each others eyes. I remember the last time I was this close to a boy.

*Flashback*

"Shots Shots Shots!!!" many boys shout as I take 5 shots of vodka, after I do I shake my head in attempt to get the fuzziness in my head out but it only makes it worse "woooo" I shout as I jump and dance to the beat of the song blasting through the speakers. My friend Jodie come up in front of me and starts dancing with me about 10 minuets pass and in that time I've consumed 5 more vodka shots and drank a Malibu and Coca Cola.

"Hey where is Ethan?" I shout to Jodie so she can hear me over the music "I don't know he's your best friend and this is his house party" She shouts back taking my drink from my hand  because I tend to use alcohol as a stress reliver. I nod to her and start to stumble up the stairs almost falling on every step passing a drunk couple snogging each others face off.

I reach the top of the stairs and stand in stumble into Ethan's room he's not there so I walk in and take off my black heels I've been wearing all night I leave them next to his closet and sit down on his bed.

Even though I've been in Ethan's room lot since we grew up together he always has different photos in his picture frames. I pick up the closest one that is on his side table as my vision in blurry from drinking a lot of alcohol. It take me a couple of seconds to realize that  it's a picture of me and him on a beach making sand castles, when we where younger. I smile to myself thinking of the memory. 

Suddenly, a boy bursts through the door walking into the room clearly drunk with a red cup in his hand I put the picture frame back onto the small table when I realize It's Ethan who entered. He stumbles in almost falling over his own feet and he shuts the door behind him he looks at me pointing his index finger at me almost letting the alcohol spill out of his cup "Heyyyyyyy Jess" he says walking over sitting next to me on his bed. "hi Ethan I was looking for you" I inform him as he takes a drink from his cup. "Well here I am" he says pointing to himself putting his cup on the small table that is placed next to his bed.

We sit in silence as I continue to look around his room at his picture frames still sat on his bed and I can feel his eyes staring at me as I do. "You look really *hiccup* beautiful" he compliments me "thank you" I accept the compliment I'm too drunk and too busy looking around to take into account that Ethan had started to lean in.

I turn my head and see that he is trying to kiss me I put my hands on his shoulder in attempt to push him away but he continues to try and kiss me "Ethan you're drunk come on now" I attempt to snap him out of what he is doing "come on so are you Jess" he whispers into my ear he kisses me on my check which he has done before when we where both sober so I didn't mind it as much but the he tried to kiss me on the lips and I pushed him away.

And stood my and walked to his closet to get my heels as I do I walk to his bedroom door heels in hand, I then feel hands on my waist spinning me around pinning me to the door.

"Come on Jess I know you want to" Ethan whispers to me I can smell the alcohol in his breath. I turn my face from him so he can't see my face he goes to kiss me again but I push him away. I attempt to leave but he pushes me against the door yet again.

At this moment I have sobered myself up from being scared and nervous my eyes begin to fill with tears as he leans in and attempts to kiss me. "I said no!" I shout to him kneeing him in the crotch and running out down the stairs as he falls to the ground.

I walk outside and find my friend Jodie when I do I run up to her and throw my arms around her she instantly hugs me back asking what's wrong and what happened. I don't answer just letting tears fall from my eyes and sobs escape from my mouth. Due to the fact that my bestfriend has just attempt to forcefully kiss me and that our friendship will never be the same. For me anyway.

One of the only things I hate in the world is someone using 'I was drunk' as an excuse because most people say that, what you do when your drunk is what you want to do when your sober but you don't have the confidence.

*End of Flashback*

I brake the silence sitting back making some space in between me and JJ.

"well lets just say I'm not exactly as perfect as you may think" I say as I finish speaking the van come to a stop.

we all get out and me and Kiara grab our surfboards from the back where the boys had been sat.

I put mine on the ground taking off my denim shorts, my jacket and my sandals taking a hit from my vape before leaving it in the van along with my shorts and jacket.

Kiara takes of her shorts and jacket leaving her in her dark blue bikini "god how long does it take?" John B complains.

"Give it a rest JB" Kiara says making me smile me and Kiara grab our boards as does the boys and we walk down to the beach ready to do some surfing.