Love is not what everyone make it seem like. Yes, it's nice to feel loved but it also feel good to give it. My problem is once I love you we locked in. Life may have other plans but of course the love wouldn't go away. Not all love feel good. Sometimes I just think why did love find its way in my life. Love is taking a break from eachother, understanding eachother, motivate eachother, laugh together, sing together, dance, sleep, get sick, kiss on eachother. Love can cause a person to chock on their words/text, they know the right thing to say but don't know how to say it at all. I'm 18 I experienced the love I needed and the love I wanted. The one I wanted left me clueless on what I needed. All I knew was toxic toxic toxic. I didn't and still don't know how to love. The love I needed really matured me. It felt good to have someone who understands me in ways anybody else couldn't. I had that love and ran off with it not knowing what to do. I believe in second chances but with things like this there's only one and if you blow it. Your loss. That what happen to me. My loss. My fucking lose. It's driving me crazy to the part where I can't live without her. If she leaves Ill be lonely. I can't be lonely. I can't live life lonely. I just feel lost at the moment.
