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Jungkook - Anxiety

'It'll go away. It'll go away."

You kept muttering to yourself as you currently sat on the bathroom floor, with your body slowly rocking back and forth as a way to calm yourself down.

Currently, you were having of your often occurring panic attacks. At that moment, you should've been getting ready to go out with your boyfriend who promised to come pick you up for a dinner date. And you couldn't lie, you were excited for that. But then you did the one thing you weren't supposed to. You started thinking about all the crowds you were gonna have to face and that made you go into an immediate panic.

Your breathe became uneasy and you felt like you were gasping for every little breathe that you took. You started to shake out of nervousness and your throat got tighter by the second. Next came that impending doom feeling and that's what put you over the edge.

You went from putting foundation (for the people that don't wear makeup, then ignore that foundation statement) on, to curling up on the floor.

Problem was, this wasn't uncommon for you. Little things sent you into a panicked state to the point where sometimes you were used to it, but when you thought of crowds, you couldn't help but work yourself up to much.

"Come on. Come on." You mumbled to yourself with frustration. "Get it together before he comes back.".

You would think that while you had your panic attack, you would call Jungkook so that he could calm you down since he was your sense of comfort, but the only problem was that he didn't know about your anxiety.

At first, it wasn't hard to hide your attacks from him. If you had one while you were out with him, then you would make up the bathroom excuse and calm down there or you'd usually have panic attacks in your apartment. Even so, when you were with him you never had a reason to have panic attacks or just his presence would keep you calm so it worked out.

But you didn't know what had gotten into you today. It happened so sudden and you wanted it gone.

Now.

Nothing could make matters worse. At least that's what you thought until you heard the familiar chime from your phone indicating that you received a text message. Anyone would've been happy about that, but that just made your heart drop because you knew who it was from.

You took a peek at your phone and saw that it was a text from Jungkook.

I'm outside, beautiful.  Is what it read and you typed back a: Be right there! :). Even though you were still sitting on the bathroom floor.

You could've sworn that only a minute has passed,but next thing you knew, you heard your front door open and Jungkook scream out your name.

You looked at your phone and saw that it been 7 minutes since you sent the text.

Shit.

The thought of him seeing you in this state only made you panic more and your now almost calming breathes felt like you were struggling to breath again.

You heard the sound of his voice coming closer towards the bathroom and you didn't even try to move because you knew that it was no use. He was gonna get into the bathroom regardless and you honestly didn't have the energy. You only closed your eyes and hugged yourself as you tried to breathe properly.

"Y/N, I-." He started as he got to the bathroom, but he immediately stopped as soon as he saw you in the corner of the bathroom. The horrifying state you were in made him immediately rush over to you with worry in his eyes.

He brought you in his arms and you were quick to cling onto him like a lost puppy finding their momma. As much as you hated him seeing you like this, you definitely didn't want to let him go. You couldn't and it was obvious that he wasn't gonna let you go either.

"Calm down for me, baby. Breathe. I'm here now, baby. Breathe for me." He said in a soothing tone and he sat as a support for your back. He held you up as he took slow breathes with you.

You quickly followed along with him, desperate to breathe normally and after awhile, you started to finally calm down.

After making sure you were fully soothed, Jungkook moved so that he was now sitting in front of you. "Are you ok?"

You nodded, but made sure to keep your head down which resulted in him putting a finger under your chin to force you to look up at him. "What happened today, baby? I've never seen you have a panic attack before."

"They happen often. I just hide them from you." You said truthfully. There was no point in lying to him now.

He clenched his jaw and his eyes filled with a mixture of guilt and regret. "Why didn't you tell me?" He asked, but you knew he wanted to say more.

"I didn't want to worry you and as often as they happen, you'd see me as a burden." You admitted.

"What triggered one today?"

"The thought of going out. Just the thought of all the people made me so nervous and then I heard you come in earlier and got even more panicked because I didn't want you to find out." You mumbled. "I'm sorry. I should've told you sooner."

Jungkook's sighed and scooped you into his arms. "I'm so sorry, Y/N. I had no idea. I promise you're not a burden to me and you never will be, my love. I promise I'll do everything to help you whenever you have a panic attack again. Yeah?"

You smiled at him and nodded before hugging him tightly. You felt so lucky to have someone like him.

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A/N
Hey, besties. I know this ending isn't *chefs kiss* but  I will be editing it, but I just had to release a new imagine because I've been working on this one for a few weeks now, but was so busy with graduation to upload one and I'm so sorry for that, my loves. But for the time being, here's a new imagine for you guys.

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