Losing everything

Dreadful night

I wish it never happened,
I have my nights that I cry in bed wishing you were still with us,
I miss your laugh,
Your assent,
Your smile,
The face you'll always make when you were looking at the paper or on your phone,
Your lovely blue eyes that I wish I inherited from you but I simply have brown,
I miss you dearly & I love you dearly,
I wish I could simply give you a big hug and kiss and never let go,
We had so many amazing memories together,
Especially when I was a kid and we would spend over an hour playing teachers,
Or for my birthday we went to the beach,
And I'll still make more wishing you were still here,
Your my best-friend,
Which that will never change,
I wish it's just all one big dream and I'll always think I'll wake up a few months ago that's past,
I promise to make you proud,
You thought me what love is & your the first man I first ever loved and I still will love you,
I know how much you & mom loved each other especially the way you look at her,
I'm sad to say I'll never get my dream wedding dance with you,
Or have you walk me down the isle & you give me away,
I always dreamed about being married,
Especially Having you there,
But I know you'll be there will me and you always will be with us,
I'll make a speech for you at my wedding,
I love you daddy,
I wish you didn't have to leave us so soon.