Jake and Ethan

(5) Confessions

"Ahhhh, can't wait to eat my lunch" Ethan said eagerly, pulling out his tin box. Everyone else nodded in agreement. No one said anything until Ethan asked ; "Hey Roy, who DO you like?" Everyone froze before Mari giggled while Roy glared at her.
"No one." She replied quickly while looking at the wall.
"The wall is interesting, but this is more interesting. Let's play a game, shall we? I'm going to say a number between one and ten, and if you say the same number as me you gotta say who you like." He said, smiling innocently. I could only see the situation going downwards ; Roy confessing, Ethan rejecting her smoothly then taking Mari. But a small part of me was happy. My chances would go higher without Roy in the photo. It had been a couple weeks since our last "moment" and I took that time to explore sexualities; I think that for now, I was bisexual. Every week I looked at Ethan hoping for a cue that he liked me back, but it never happened.
"Ahhh, alrighty." Roy responded, fidgeting with her hands.
"Three, two, one!" Ethan chanted. I gulped. Ethan had a two... and so did Roy. She laughed nervously, looking at Mari. "Cmon, tell us!" Ethan said.
"Take your time Roy" I said. Poor girl, about to be rejected-
"I like Jake" She said quickly, looking at the ceiling. She said it so quietly no one should have been able to hear it. But we did. I glanced at Ethan, his face unreadable. Anger? Defeat? Had I beaten him? Or... Had Roy beaten him? Whatever. Didn't matter, since I didn't have a crush on Ethan. I smiled at Roy, who looked like a tomato. "Thanks, but i'm just not ready for a relationship." She smiled, nodding. I could feel Ethan's eyes glazing over me, so I walked over to his side of the table. "Problem?" I asked innocently.
"You're not ready for a relationship?" I froze, cheeks heating up. Not the question I had been expecting.
"Ah, well," His face was curious, but I knew there was more to that. "Not with a girl, not yet." The words slipped out before I knew what was wrong.
"Ouuuuu you're Bi? Me too!" Roy exclaimed happily.
"I didn't know...You liked guys Jake" Ethan said, staring at me. Fuck.
"Don't get too cocky, I don't like you." Correction; I loved him. I hated him, but that burning passion for him was also a desire to be near him.
"Ah well, I do." My heart stopped. I stared at him. Was this a joke? Or all those moments, were they real? He looked at me, waiting for my next move. He knew the feeling was mutual, why was he making me so panicked? Ethan laughed, then walked away to his friends. Ass. I was about to walk away, when- SLaM
"Ohhhh my god he likes you Jake" Roy exclaimed. Didn't you just confess to me-
"I don't like him." The words weren't mine, a strange mumble of letters that were not meaning to me.
"Sure you don't. " Mari laughed. Was I the gay boy that hung around with girls now?
"Okay yeah. I'm totally in love with him." Their faces dropped, and before I could ask them why, a voice that was behind me replied. "Don't worry Jake, I love you too." Oh, fuck. Ethan.