merder oneshots

I love you

A/N: i think this is an AU? kind of idk.  meredith and derek are still together together, derek was never married. this is basically just how i think he would've acted if he was still with meredith during 2x16 and 2x17

I was finally getting ready to close Tucker up, his surgery had gone smoothly. All I wanted to do now was run downstairs and hug Meredith, I'm sure she must be worried sick for me. I felt horrible for staying up here, but I couldn't let Baileys husband die. The only thing that provided me peace of mind was that I knew Meredith was safe.

The doors to my O.R opened and I saw Cristina walk in..

"How's it going, Yang?"

"Everything's fine."

"How's the girl with the bomb?"

"How's Tucker doing?"

"I'm getting ready to close him up. You didn't answer my question."

"Yeah?"

"How is the girl with the bomb?"

"It's Meredith. The girl with the bomb is Meredith."

I immediately felt sick to my stomach; my blood ran cold. This couldn't be real. Meredith can't be the girl with the bomb, she's supposed to be downstairs. She's supposed to be safe. She's supposed to be waiting for me.

As I stood there, frozen in time, all of my memories with her were replaying in my head. I couldn't help but blame myself for this. She told me she had a feeling, she told me she thought she was going to die today, yet I dragged her out of bed and made her go to work. Now all I could think of was the conversation that we had in bed this morning

Flashback to this morning...

The beeping of Merediths alarm was blaring in my ears, I quickly shut it off and turned back around to hug her.

"It's time to get up", I whispered as I nuzzled my head into the crook of her neck.

"No, I'm not going to work today"

"What do you mean? I checked the calendar yesterday, you're supposed to work a 12-hour shift today."

"I mean i'm not going to work today. I'll get someone to cover for me. I don't want- I just can't go to work today."

I instantly began to worry for her.

"Are you okay? Do you feel sick?"

"No, I'm not sick. I just, I have a feeling" she sighed

"What do you mean you have a feeling?"

"I mean, I have a feeling I might die. That something terrible is going to happen today."

"I get those."

"You do?"

"Of course, everyone does"

"And?"

"If you wait long enough, it passes"

"Promise?"

"I promise. And if it doesn't pass, just think back to this kiss and I promise you'll feel better" I said as I slowly made my way to her lips...

back to the O.R....

My heart was pounding in my chest, I felt like I could hear the blood rushing through my veins. I knew Cristina was talking to me but I could barely hear her. The only thing I could think of was Meredith.