I Looked Across and Fell In Love

Chapter 10

[Taylor's POV]

I flop myself down on the bed, sobbing into the pillow, just as I hear the front door click shut. He cheated I think to myself, am I not good enough? I hate him, I hate him, I hate him. I try thinking. But I'm lying. Sure, he cheated, I should hate him. But I could never hate him. I hate myself, I think. Thats the real truth. I am not good enough for him. Athina should be the one with him. Not me. That is if we still are together.

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I finally stop sobbing and grab my phone. My cheeks and pillow still equally tear stained. I call Ed. Within two rings he answers

"Taylor." He answers as if he's been watching his phone, waiting for my call.

"Hi." I whisper. Hearing his voice suddenly brings back tears.

"Tay, I'm so, so, so sorry. I-"

"Ed. Stop." I say, once again crying. I take a few deep breaths and speak again, "Ed, we....we should see other people."

"Taylor, I know you're mad at me. I'm mad at me too. But I'm not done loving you. I will never be..." he whispers that last part. He's killing me.

"Im not mad at you. I am mad at me. Im not good enough for you. You should be with Athina." I say, tears still falling.

"Taylor. Dont say that. You are so much better for me than she ever was. You are so perfect. I could never be with anyone else." He's firm with his words, but so gentle. Making more tears fall from my eyes. "Would you be ok if I came to see you?"he asks genuinely and sweetly.

"I-i guess so. " I sniffle.

"Ok, I will be there soon. I love you." He spits out quickly, as if he was already walking out the door. He waits for me to tell him that I love him. But I can't. I do love him. But I cant tell him that.

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He knocks on my door nearly twenty minutes after i hang up the phone. I swing open the door, my face still flushed. He pulls me into his chest and we both cry into each other. His is silent, but I can feel him. It makes me hurt even more.

"I'm sorry. So sorry. I love you more than words can express." He sobs.

I dont say anything. I pull away and kiss him. He pulls away after a few seconds. "Does this mean you forgive me?" He asks lightheartedly. I let out a small chuckle. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't joke."

"Thats alright." I say, wiping my eyes, "I love you too"

"Hmm?"he questions me.

"Before... on the phone and what not. I couldn't tell you then because... well I'm not sure why but I just couldn't. Maybe because I needed to see you again. Because now, seeing you and all, I can. I know I do. I love you."

"You are the most amazing human, ever." Is all he say, and I chuckle again, "I'm dead serious." I place a soft kiss on his lips and he grins.

"Can we just put this behind us?" I ask. This would probably end any of my previous relationships, but not this one.

"I think that would be good." He replies. Kissing me once more.

A/N: HEY Y'ALL SORRY ABOUT THE WAIT. MAJOR WRITTERS BLOCK!! THANKS FOR 110 READS! I DIDNT EXPECT EVEN THAT MANY! IF YOU HAVE ANY REQUESTS FOR THIS (OR ANYTHING TO WRITE IN THE FUTURE) PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!!