Friends? (Depressed!USA X Russia fanfic)

(not a chapter) Regarding my lack of posting;

Okay, I feel as if I owe you all an explanation as to why I've been so dead,

The long and short of it is that I've almost been hospitalized twelve times since starting this book and I'm really really struggling to continue writing it because my mental health has been at an all-time low (which between you and me, is fucking saying something)

There's a lot of reasons that I'm a wreck at the moment, the main reasons are that I'm getting slapped around by depression and my big sister attempted suicide because she was put on a medication she should not have been which triggered a minor psychotic episode, and when she told the doctors what was happening because of the meds they doubled her dose, My mum is making me move out and live with my other sister who lives in disability care because I'm too mentally ill to take care of myself and my last 10 months have been me just saying "I can't tell my family I want to kill myself, I'd ruin //insert meaningless event here// and that would be selfish"

I want to continue this story and if I manage to get back into the mental state, I will continue it, but for now I might start a Dream SMP or CH angst one shot book? So if you like my writing style that should happen at some point soon

Until then though, I'll see you when I'm out of the storm <3

-River/Fishy (They/Them)