Friends? (Depressed!USA X Russia fanfic)

I'll keep you safe.

Russia's POV:

I saw USA sitting alone in the cafeteria, I looked to where my friends North Korea and China were sitting and decided to sit with USA instead. I saw look of disgust on their faces as I sat next to them.

"Why's Russia sitting with that freak?" North Korea asked china, with a smirk on his face "no clue, I heard he stopped a group of people from beating them up before though, not like we don't bully them anyways. As if helping them one time would change that" China said, half glaring at USA for stealing me away and half smirking at his own comment.

I look at my 'friends', hearing every foul word about me and USA coming from their mouths. USA can clearly hear as well as I see their expression get filled with anxiety and sadness

"You okay USA?" I ask, worried about their mental health. They deal with this shit on a daily basis, it must be pretty upsetting to hear stuff so awful so often

"Yeah, I'm okay" they reply almost immediately, as if by autopilot. "Those guys are just assholes. I don't care what they think..." I see their facial expression get slightly sadder "okay, wanna go get something to eat? I'm pretty hungry" I ask... "s-sure, I-I'm a bit hungry t-too" they reply, smiling slightly. "Let's go then!" I say happily, I hold their hand gently and walk to the kitchen area to get food...

USA'S POV

Russia is holding my hand... he's holding me hand! I feel face getting getting hot, I'm blushing... Oh god what if he notices! AaaaaaaaAAaaaa "What would you like to eat" Russia asks me, with his thick Russian accent. God, his accent- I feel like I'm melting, I just look at his face... God he's so hot "USA? You alright?" shit- I need to answer him... "u-uhh... I-I'll just have a burger" I say, getting some money out

"Нет (T: No), put that money away. I'll pay for both of us" He says, taking out some money "you don't need to pay for me!" I say, trying to stop him from paying for me "hey, just think of it as an apology for my friends behaviour" he says, glaring at North Korea and China slightly as he says it. "Fine, but I'll pay for our food next break. Deal?" I ask, though I won't take no for an answer "Да, (T: yes) that works"

Russia's POV
(Anorexia/bulimia warning. This will be a thing for the rest of the chapter. Stay safe bois)

they're eating quite slowly, looking at their watch constantly. Almost like they're trying to wait out the break... that's... Worrying...

"You okay USA?" I ask, getting more concerned. "Yeah I'm alright, why do you ask?" They reply "you're eating kinda slow, and you seem a bit anxious" I reply, looking down at them worryingly "m-my mind is just being a bit Interesting at the moment. I have a shitty class next and It's making me a bit anxious" they reply, smiling up at him to try to convince Russia they're okay

they finish their food and get up "I'm going to go to the bathroom, I won't be long okay?" They say, with a slight forced smile "okay, I'll wait here okay?" I reply "okay! I won't be long I promise" they go into the bathroom...

After a while I get worried and go into the bathroom "USA are you okay-...." I hear USA gag, then gag again, then finally throw up... They forced themself to throw up just after eating...

"U-USA? Are you okay?" I ask, now very worried "shit..." I hear them murmur. They open the bathroom stall, they're pale and shaking slightly "USA... Did you- did you f-force yourself to throw up?" I ask, walking over to them... They don't reply, they look at the floor sadly "why? Why would you do that?" Russia asks sadly, hoping there's a reasonable explanation

"...after eating I felt... So gross... I couldn't handle it, I'm sorry... I'm trying to loose weight so I wasn't planning on eating this break" ...they look at the ground ashamed "I-I can p-pay you back for the food if you want-!!" I hug them comfortingly "hey... You don't need to pay me back, and you don't need to apologize... I just want you to be okay..." I say, trying to comfort them... They look up at him and and start to cry, hugging him back weakly.

"I-I'm sorry- I-I j-just- I've j-just had a b-bad day today, my d-dad... H-He--" they stop, as if they just realised what they just said "hmm? Is your homelife bad?" USA hesitates and then nods "m-my dad is... really abusive... Verbally, mentally and physically... And I can't leave, I need to look after my siblings. If I take most of it, I get to protect the others... I wouldn't be able to live with myself if they got hurt."

I'm just taken aback, I never realised how bad their life is... "USA... I'm so sorry... I never realised you were being hurt like that" I say, hugging them a bit tighter "It's... It's nice to finally be able to tell someone."

"Don't worry USA."

"I'll protect you."

"Nobody will hurt you anymore."

"I promise."

[AYYY I'MMMM BACCK BOIZ! sorry about the hUGe wait, my mental health did a heckin yEET and my depression, self harm and anorexia came back real strong, but after taking some time with my partners (yeah fun fact- I'm in a polyamorous relationship. And I'm pan, and I'm Non-binary and dating a girl, a demiboy and a guy.) I'm feeling a lot better now and I'm finally going to get back on track (famous last words) and feckin' update this book! Please tell me how I did and any requests are appreciated. Thanks! -Nemo/fishy/River x3]