In need of help | Kiribaku

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Kirishima

I feel drained after the last night. All this input is exhausting and what even happened last night? And why am I alone in our bed? Did he leave me alone again for god knows what?

Why wont he let me join him to wherever he goesss?

Anyways, I get ready for school and head downstairs to eat, this time not waiting for Sero and Denki for whatever reason.

Taking the last step to the common room I'm faced with a dark aura hanging around in th room as soon as I enter.

Dafuq? I turn around if its primarily because of me or someone else but only to face the fact that its my fault.

"Good morning?" I ask cautiously but they all just turn around in disappointment I guess and even Mina?

What did I do last night?

The only thing I remember is Bakugou wanting to talk to me and I made a joke about it...

OH HELL NO URGH

What did I do afterwards?

I cant really think about considering that I have to eat and then head to class to not end up being late.

I'm alone in the kitchen and hear gloomy and yet worried chatter from the others.

Does it has something to do with Bakugou? Nah.. Or?

As I am about to head out of the dorm I hear Sero saying that they are going to talk to Mr. Aizawa. Strange..

As they leave I follow close behind and pull Sero aside with me.

"Yo bro, why do you want to talk to Aizawa? Did something happen?" I wasnt really prepared for his reaction to my question. He looked at me with an 'are you fucking serious' look which only confused me more.

"What do you mean with 'Did something happen?'?"
"Well first I come downstairs and you guys look at me as if I killed someone and now you want to talk to Aizawa. Did I miss something yesterday?"

"Oh my god, Kiri did you forget last night?"
"Not that I know."

"Ok so last night you made fun of Bakugous pride and ego, do you remember that?"
"Yes I do?"

"Ok then do you remember getting brought downstairs after that?"
"No not really, why?"

"You must be kidding me right? Who are you and what did you do to Kirishima?"
"Bro I still dont get it! Whats the point, what else happend yesterday? I was fucking exhausted from the day and the day before that, I only wanted to sleep."

"Well since you cant recall shit, Imma make this short.
After you made fun of Bakugou he apparently ran downstairs through the common room, past us and cry and Bakugou never cries or at least doesnt let us know."
"Wait what? I made him cry?"

Im not that surprised tho..

"Yeah but thats not all, we got you downstairs afterwards and you started arguing with us about what happened and what we sould do next since this is rare and if it happens, shit is really going down. You made even Midoria angry, was pretty scary if you ask me.

You behavior lead to him saying, that you are anything but manly and that even our perv is manlier. To be honest, never thought he would go that far...

Then again, he is his childhood friend and that does a lot.. ANYWAYS I've talked enough. We should head to class." He said and then started walking again.

Well maybe I've gone a bit too far? But Bakugou is still stable. Right?

"Yeah you are right but why Aizawa then?"
I think he teased up, or at least his shoulders did that movement..

"Kiri are you for real? Think about why we inform Aizawa for a quick second after I just told you all of that. I dont know what you have been shown from him the last months but I did notice that he has changed. And by that I mean his mental health droped." He said in a serious, yet concerned and somehow sad way.

Have I been that blind towards him? Is this really all my fault?

"I guess so.." I admit and walk behind him.

Should I join them telling Aizawa? What will they think? But wouldnt that be some coward behavior? On the other hand, if I dont go, I look like I care no bit after what Sero just told me from yesterday.

The Bakusquat, now also including me in this very moment and a few other like Midoria and Todoroki were standing in front of the teachers office waiting for Mr. Aizawa to come out.

"So you are telling me that Bakugou ran away. Crying. And hasnt shown up since?" Our teacher asked disappointed. Most of us looked down, in pain, worry but mostly fear the other tried to look though? Including me.

"How did that even happen?"
Suddenly, their eyes were darted at me, sending cold shivers down my spine.

"Well I may or may not have use the wrong words in the wrong tone in the wrong moment while he tried to to open up a bit." I said while scratching the back of my neck.

"God, I hate to ask this but are you out of your mind?! You problem children, same goes for the rest who witnessed the whole scene." He said while pinching the bridge of his nose.

"I mean, I would have gone after him but that is Bakugou and I didnt want get blown up by him." Kaminari threw in, to which I followed.

"And apparently he cried as he ran away so I thought it would be good to give him space." I am not sure what Aizawas face said in that moment but it wasnt good.

"Apparently?" He asked.

"Well yeah, I stayed in our room after he went downstairs and a short while after I got pulled downstairs aswell but I dont really remember that for some reason."

"You what? Isnt he like your boyfrie-" I think he just realised that he still has his role as a teacher and has to behaves as a rolemodel so he interrupted himself.

However, that made me go silent. He was right. I still was his boyfriend. I should be supporting him and not question it, just accept, listen and comfort. All that I did was the opposite.

Thats when Aizawa spoke up again. "Well anyways. You guys head to class, tell the other that I will come in late and tell them to study while I'm arranging stuff with the other teacher. And no, and I repeat no one is going to look for him on their own. I swear you will regret that. No go." He said and turned on his heels, while swinging the door shut.

We all just stared at each other, knowing exactly for what he will be late and in all honestly, I think I can speak for us all when I say that we were glad that he is doing it. He is a teacher after all and partly responsible for us.

After a moment of silence, we made our way over to the classroom, arriving Midoria told Iida what the rest of us is supposed to do and he gratefully did his chores. 

Its Iida after all.

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My undiagnosed depression is kicking me in the head just like Dabi.
I currently feel like collecting some "stuff" for the big show off of my life 😀📉
(If you know what I mean..)
My grades are the worst and I dont want to deal with my mom. I love her but she will obviously be mad at me for letting my grades drop due to procrastinating. This life I'm leading sucks and I'm tired of it. For the things I want to do I need a good graduation and money. I wont get that if I keep my current spirit. I know I need to get up but my body wont let me like there is some barrier. Next I feel like crying and want to drown in self pity. If anyone is feeling the same, lets push us out of this and start to get our life under control.

Phew writing this kinda helped lmao.

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