In need of help | Kiribaku

3.

Kirishima pov

Fife minutes went by and I whisper Katsukis name only to find out that he is sound asleep, I take that opportunity to lift my hand up and play with his hair.
Its still wet and lays almost flat on his head, at some spots it already started to dry which made it stick up from stran to stran. Its cute. I gently pet his head and get surprised by the softness. How did I never notice this? Its a riddle to me, how it can be so soft and fluffy and still stand up so spikey.

My hair never behaves like that. Its anything but soft and especially not naturally spikey because of all the bleaching, dying, teasing and hairspray. I am basically torturing it but what can you do when you usually have boring black flat hair. If I wouldnt dye and style it, Katsuki would be totally right with it being shitty but not under the current conditions. Because now it looks cool!

My eyes turn away from my blonde and up to the ceiling. I take a deep breath in and out causing my man do rise and fall with my chest causing him to murr in his sleep. Man.. I am so lucky to have him.

Another look out the window tells me that its getting dark. Summer time started two months ago so it will be completely dark by 9pm.

Slowly but surely, my back is aching after laying like this for like an hour? So I attempt to move away from him and somehow manage to do so without waking up my significant other.

Next thing I know, after I properly layed him on the couch, I am in the bathroom. I am faced with a full bathtub and almost completely clean water.. What is going on here? On top of that there is his white button down and his black skinny jeans but drenched in water. He never wears them.

I turn back to the tub. Sonce we live together I dont mind unplugging the tub and holy shit. Now I am not wondering anymore why he was freezing like that.i can feel my nervesystem sending shivers down my spine...

Did he even wash himself? Did he forget to-? Wait. No. He isn't stupid, why would he forget to wash himself? Either way I am dense to what is going on or this is a new thing he found to fuck me up.. Then again, he wouldnt have acted that way earlier... Ahhh all this thinking gives me a headache!

Anyways, I pick up the wet clothes and put them on a hanger over the tub so they can dry down over there. The laundry bag isn't a proper place to put them.

Today is a strange day. I know that for sure.

Bakugou pov

I wake up from my dreamless sleep and notice that Eiji left me on the couch. Have I been asleep for too long? I stand up with a blanked on my shoulders and walk off to the kitchen.

I open up the fridge to maybe find something to snack but there is nothing that catches my interest. I closed it again and am about to walk back to the living room but instead, I am faced
with Kirishima leaning in the doorway. He looks tired and sad.. Has he found out? Am I too much of a burden?

I get scared and unfortunately for me, my face had the guts to speak for me, making me turn around to stop this misery.

"What was about the 'maybe' from earlier?" He speaks up.

"Nothing" I mutter under my breath. Why did I have to say that? I wont tell him either way I guess
"But-" I cut him off. "I'm fine! There is nothing to talk about!" My anger breaks out while I clench my fist. I feel bad for shouting at him but else he wouldnt stop, right?
"Then why are you not able to talk about it if you are fine."

He replies carefully but it doesnt work. Instead it makes me more angry and frustrated. It feels so wrong. It feels like he thinks I am weak. But I am most of all weak, well mentally. But they cant know.

"Because its not IMPORTANT!"
I shout.
By now, I try my hardest to not start crying like a fucking wimp and sink to the floor.
Why wont he let me be? Why does he care? Does he even care or is it all just to make himself feel better?

I turn back around to see a shocked Kirishima. I've never shouted at him like that. Not for something like this.

He dares to step closer and I back away until I am met with a wall behind me. I keep on staring a hole in the ground as he rises his hand of to my cheeks, forcing me to look at his beautiful crimison red eyes. My eyes are widen just by looking at them. I dont deserve them

Its been a while since someone witnessed me in a state similar to this. And I hate feeling like this.
Down.
Sad.
Full of worthlessness.
Close to crying.
Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't show.
Not now...
He will think you are weak.
He will think you are disgusting
He will think you are a liar
He will-

"-kugou? Hey, earth to Bakugou?"
"Ye- Yeah?"
"It's okay. No need to worry. You dont have to shake, I am here.." His deep and calm voice said.
Was I shaking? Oh why? Why can't I control my body for once?

I am only able to bring out a whispered 'sorry' and try to get my shaking under control
"Why are you sorry?"
"..For for shaking"
"Dont be sorry babe.."

With that I get pulled into a big hug.
Its been a hot minute since I felt this way around someone. Its really confusing.. But can I enjoy it? Am I even allowed to?
"You can talk to me."
"But you wouldnt like me then..."
"Did you cheat on me?"

My eyes a open widely in fear. I never want him to think that of me I would never dare to cheat on him. Not even consider it. I am fucking loyal!
"W- What?! Never! Please, just never think about that ever again, I could never do that! Believe me!!"
I almost cry.

"Then what is it?"
"Like I said, its nothing important" I try to get away with that but no use.
"Babe, we have been there before..." His hand careressed my cheek but I take it away even tho I really fucking liked it and especially need it but whatever.
I take a deep breath.
"I- Is it okay if I tell you some other time?"
Perfect. My voice crumbles. Fuck.

My red head leans into my shoulder which is unexpected but fine for me.
"What do you expect me to say?"
With that being said a hot liquid runs down my cheeks... The one thing I didnt want to happen.
One by one they fall down on Eijiros shirt and get soaked up in it.

He keeps on talking as he has apparently thought about what I just said.
"If you insist, just promise me to open up when you feel ready for it."
I nod in agreement and my vision is blurry.

Kirishima reached for the kitchen towels and grabs one, next thing I know, he lifts up my chin once again after I looked at the floor again.

"Sssshh it will be fine.." He wipes away my tears and I can see things a bit better. He smiles. It was filled with hope. Useless hope. How does he manage to always see the good things?

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Eh votes? Anyone? <3

Well this is my part of complaining bout my life:
I may or may not have texted my crush. Dumb idea. I know. Anyways, I somehow got rejected because he only wrote the necessary shit (I didnt confess, no worries 🙌) Next dumb thing I most definitely shouldnt have do is telling my freinds about it ahah my anxiety and wish to isolate myself from them, saying that as a extroverted sag, is really big rn.

Most annoying part:
I thought I got better than last year but apparently I either fell back who I used to be or I have never changed and am still that little insecure anxious piece of shit, that doesnt lean from their mistakes ahahha 💀🔫

Lets go therapyyyy woohoo.. if that only would be so easy.

However. I still wish you a wonderful day 😌💕🤝