TW: panic attack, therapy, intrusive thoughts, self harm. Ily <3
George had 2 months:
2 months until he got to see Dream.
"George, tell me how you feel about it"
"About what Cara?"
"George, the trip, you getting to see Dream." His Therapist reminded him gently.
"Oh, well."
George couldn't admit it.
He couldn't admit about last night.
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In and out in and out in an
"Do it"
A random voice had said.
"Do what?"
"Hurt yourself"
"What no that's absurd."
"Cmon we both know we want to."
The voice had greed him on.
"No whoever you are, that's absurd."
"Cmon George how do you not know who I am?"
"I really don't."
"George."
"I'm you."
George had then blacked out.
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"WAKE UP"
"Huh what?"
"George, you feel asleep again"
"Oh"
"Are you okay George? You seem very bothered today."
"Cara if I tell you, you're gonna get mad."
"George nothing could make me get mad at you unless you insult my son."
"Ok well..."
How could George phrase this.
"I relapsed." George whispered.
"Oh George, tell me what happened."
"Well, I was sitting there trying to fall asleep again, and then, I started to overthink and I satiated getting the panic attack feeling, so then I started breathing and this intrusive voice came in and told me to cut myself. But I didn't because I made a promise, and then I asked the voice who it was and it told me.."
This was the hardest to admit.
"It told me it was myself."
"And then George?" Cara asked gently.
"I blacked out."
"Oh well..."
"I'm proud of you for not cutting yourself that is a huge step and even if you didn't do it this once your doing wonderful."
"Thank you that means a lot."
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Therapy filler I am sorry if this triggers you remover I love you (seriously ask trinity) and I wrote this because I had a TW panic attack last night I'm fine now my mom just yelled at me and I was stressed I'm ok now.
Pls remember to try and eat and drink downing and ily.
Suicide hotline pls call if struggling : 800-273-8255
Also that's my school pfp lol
<3
-mads (she / her )
