The Fear Of Love

Heartbroken

Sero, Denki and Shinsou waited patiently for Kiri to write down what he would like to be said. The violet haired boy moved some buttons on his mask, adjusting it. When Kiri was finally done and thanked Shinso he just nodded. "It's alright, Kirishima. It's okay if you don't want to tell me, I'll keep this in private for you. I understand" he said and grabbed the letter to read it first so his tone would sound more real. "Well, then I guess I would like to join you guys" he said with Kirishima's exact voice and Denki gasped surprised. They all gathered around Kirishima and Denki grabbed the redhead's phone looking for Bakugo's number and called.

In the other room, the blond's music was interrupted by the call and the blond groaned. He stared at the name on his screen for a moment, his heart weirdly pounding faster on his chest. He answered after a couple seconds. "Shitty Hair" Bakugo said at first but after he took a deep breathe sighed "Kirishima...". In the redhead's room, Shinso lifted the paper. "Bakugo... listen. I'm really sorry about running out on you the other day and ignoring you, I know that you're upset about it and probably don't understand what's going on but I can't tell you. And no, it's not because I can't trust you. I really do it's just... I can't." Kiri bit his bottom lip as Shinsou read the paper to Bakugo over the phone. He would have preferred talking to him in person but as of right now that was nowhere near a possibility.

"Please forgive me Bakugo, if you do then I would love to spar with you this week and then you could let out all the anger on me. I'm really sorry about all this mess, Bakugo." Shinso took a deep breath after finishing all the letter and everyone waited silently for an answer. "Kirishima... why the fuck do you talk so much? I forgive you." Bakugo said and everyone in the other room widened their eyes "I really want to punch you right now but I wouldn't take advantage of you since soy sauce told me you're sick. This is confusing as hell, what the fuck is going on? Why can't you fucking tell me this right in my face? It's fucking frustrating, damn it. Is it that you think I'm a monster and don't have feelings? Everyone thinks that, I'm not a damn villain and you know it, so... why? Why aren't you being your usual idiot self with me?" Shinso looked at Kiri questioning. Kirishima felt a weight lifted off his chest when Bakugo said he forgave him he thought that would be it but... it wasn't. "and... if you're sick, then why do you sound so well? Are you lying to me? God damn, Kirishima..." a groan was listened from the other line.

The things he started saying after brought that pain of thorns back into Kirishima's chest and throat, his face completely dropped into a bit of a panic. When Bakugo asked if he was lying to him Kirishima quickly tried to tell him no. "No wait Bakugo!-" He tried to reach for the phone but kneeled over, grabbing onto his chest and coughing profusely. "Kirishima? Kirishima?!" Bakugo yelled through the phone as he heard that desperate yell saying no. He heard a thud on the other room and Bakugo felt worry "I believe you, okay?! It's fine, damn it. Just fucking come back already" he said, his own tone sounding more desperate as he heard more harsh coughs and choking.

Even knowing Shinsou was in the room, Kirishima coughed over and over again flower petals and buds fell over his lap as he coughed and choked them out, soon moving a hand to his throat grabbing onto it. He felt another one of the large bloomed flowers in his throat and his eyes welled up with tears as he tried to cough it up. It nearly felt like he was going to cough out one of his lungs. When he finally got the flower out from his throat, blood dripped down his chin as he continued holding his chest and throat panting heavily, his eyes wide as he looked at the mess of blood, flower petals, flower buds, and the large bloomed flower in front of his eyes.

He slowly moved his hand into his pocket and pulled out that card that Recovery Girl gave him and held it out for somebody to take. "H-Here." He croaked out before his coughing resumed. Kirishima would never lie to Bakugo so the fact that he thought he was lying made the effects of the Hanahaki disease spiked for some reason and it hurt so bad. Kirishima seriously thought at some point he was going to cough up one of his organs or something. He pinched his eyes shut and sucked in struggled breaths as he started to repeat to himself over and over quietly. "C-Calm down... calm down... calm down." He kept his eyes shut tightly trying to think of something anything other that what he just heard.

Bakugo stood up from his bed and fought himself, should he go or shouldn't he? "Kiri!" Denki yelled through the line and Bakugo furrowed his brows. Why was Dunce Face in there? "I'll call Recovery" was that soy sauce? Bakugo's blood boiled on his veins. Why the fuck were they with him now? Why couldn't he be there for him? Sero in the other room called Recovery who immediately answered saying she'll be on her way. They kneeled beside Eijiro to pat his back and Shinsou stared in surprise at them, everyone forgot Bakugo was still on the line but not for too long since a loud slam sounded on the other door. "Shit" Sero was just about to go and lock the door when an angry explosive blond entered to the room "KIRISHIMA!" He yelled angry at first as he looked for him and his heart stopped for a second as he stared at him, on the floor, blood dripping from his mouth and coughing roughly flowers and petals. Kirishima eyes widened when he say Bakugo burst into the room. He tried to hide the flowers and blood but had no time to when his coughing just got worse and more blood and bloomed flowers spilled from his mouth.

Bakugo quickly ran by his side, a never seen worried expression on his face as he grabbed his face with both hands with a gentle touch that everyone around was surprised for. "K-Kirishima breathe. It's alright, breath. I'm here, I'm here with you. I-I..." Kirishima coughed and coughed chocking on multiple bloomed flowers and his own blood as Bakugo got closer. Painful tears poured from his eyes and he struggled to breath not being able to get in a single breath. Katsuki looked around panicked "FUCKING CALL SOMEONE!" Bakugo yelled, angry and desperate. "WHAT'S GOING ON?!" He screamed and Sero with the rest of the other boys tried to tell him to calm down but he just couldn't. Recovery Girl bursted in all of the sudden, telling everyone to move and glanced at Bakugo with worry "what is it?HELP HIM! DAMN IT! Kirishima..." Bakugo's eyes welled up with tears from frustration as he didn't let go of the redhead, hugging him tightly and mumbling softly that everything was gonna be okay.

Kirishima winced a bit, gasping for breaths coughing and choking up flowers and blood all over Bakugo's shoulder. He managed to spit out a small struggled sentence. "B-Bak-Baku-Bakugo... it h-h-hurts... I c-can't b-b-bre-breathe..." from all the coughing and spasms of his muscles in his throat and chest that his body used to make him cough so aggressively, he was tiring himself out making his eyes partly close. His arms dropped from his chest and his struggled breathing got slower and slower. "I-I-I'm s-sorry B-Bakugo... I'm s-s-so sorry I r-ran out on you..." he said breathlessly and quietly. He choked out some more bloomed flowers and spit some lose petals out.

In that moment all he felt was... guilty? He felt guilty for not telling Bakugo up front about his feelings or trying to change his mind about relationships. He felt guilty for running out on him. He felt guilty for making everyone in the room worry about him. And he even felt guilty for getting blood and flower petals all over Bakugo's shirt. He was running out of energy and his coughing slowly got weaker and weaker making the flowers pile up in his throat and his breathing get even slower. He closed his eyes, letting a few more tears fall down his cheeks. He just wanted this to be over, he wanted the pain to go away, he couldn't breath, his voice was too weak to say anything and he couldn't make himself cough anymore. The last thing he was able to mutter our was...

"P-Please..."

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Authors note:

Damn. it's a sad chapter, isn't it?
Hope we didn't make anyone cry because you will be crying in the next chapter. Maybe from joy? Maybe not?

*insert villainous laughter*
Save your tears!

Haha don't worry mis amores❤️.

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