The Fear Of Love

My whole world

Kirishima's face went red as the others moved his hand to write 'its you' on the paper and showed Bakugo. Kirishima tired to stop the others as Sero grabbed them and took them all out of the room leaving just... him and Bakugo. Kirishima slowly looked to Bakugo and seeing that he was speechless made him start to panic, a little more worry and doubt sinking into his heart and he could already feel flower petals coming up from his throat. Katsuki was in some sort of trance. What surprised Bakugo the most was how someone as sweet, caring, loving and bright as Kirishima had fell in love with him in such a pure way that his love got him sick, it shocked Bakugo so much. No one had ever loved him like that.

Kirishima's breathing monitor slowed down his breathing getting more challenging. He felt the tickle and scratch of the petals coming up his throat, he really really didn't want to cough, his throat hurt so bad and he didn't even know if he had the strength right now to even cough. He messed with his hands nervously and anxiously as he sucked in a wheezed breath and tried to speak. "I-It's t-true B-B-Bakugo... it's y-you but I k-know you d-d-don't l-like relationships s-so it's ok if y-you say no." He paused as one of the petals came up and he painfully coughed making his breathing hesitate. He let the petal fall into his lap and reached over to the little remote thing at the side of his bed, pressing that button to call in a nurse since he was starting to painfully cough up flower petals again. Kirishima almost dies for him, his love was true and the realization of that had Bakugo in a trance that didn't lasted much as he heard him struggle for his breath "Kirishima..." he said, running by his side and grabbing his face between his hands staring deeply at his crimson eyes. "I d-d-don't want to f-force you into anything, B-Bakugo. I k-know you're better th-than anyone, right? S-So don't f-feel like you h-have to s-s-say yes for me." Kirishima's voice was very rasped and quiet, it was hard for his voice to even get across the room at this point. He winced as he let out a couple more painful and strange sounding coughs choking out two more flowers.

"It's g-gonna be fine, breathe. I... I don't know how to say it, I don't..." the blond took a deep breath, feeling his cheeks and nose getting warmer and probably with a pink color "when you left me at that restaurant I thought you didn't wanted to be around me anymore, and I was so used to you and acted like a damn fucking idiot and tried to convince myself that I didn't needed you. Fuck, when I... when I..." his voice broke, Katsuki's ruby eyes welling up in tears "w-when I saw you earlier, on the floor with so much blood on your lips and coughing those flowers I... I felt like the world was falling apart. Like if my heart was shattering at the moment I saw the pain in your eyes and damn, I-I don't know how to express it well and it's frustrating for me but I... I just know that..." Bakugo couldn't help to blink, the tears rolling down his cheeks as he pressed his forehead to Kirishima's and breathed deeply "I just know that you're my world" he said, totally breaking and sobbing.

Bakugo hugged the redhead tightly, starting to hiccup. Kirishima winced when Bakugo hugged him but of course he hugged him back. "I'm such an idiot. I-I should've noticed sooner! It's all my fault, Kirishima. I-I did this to you. I a-almost end the b-best thing t-that has happened to me... please stay with me, don't leave me Eijiro. P-Please..." Kirishima tried to comfort him even though his voice was weak and painful to get out. "I'm t-trying n-not too leave, B-Bakugo. I'm t-trying... I'm t-t-trying." Bakugo felt more tears flooding his eyes. "I fu-fucking need you, I need you so much, godamnit." He separated and stared at his world, falling apart between his hands and he joined their lips in a loving kiss that tasted of salty tears and blood. "Y-You're m-my whole w-world" Bakugo said hiccuping.

When their lips jointed in a kiss, Kirishima felt that feeling of thorns in his lungs and throat go away. Sadly, he was still in pain due to straining his body so much but the Hanahaki had finally started to go away and Kirishima took a more somewhat normal breath. "S-Stop crying, B-B-Bakugo. Please, I d-don't like seeing y-you so upset." Bakugo thought it wall happened so fast. His heart ached knowing that he was the one who caused Kirishima so much suffering and still, he kept caring about him and asking him to stop crying and it just made Katsuki feel so guilty about everything. Stupid, stupid, stupid, he repeated it his mind but it all stopped when those words were said: "I... I l-l-love yo-you, Bakugo K-K-Katsuki..." Kirishima managed to spit out as one last bloomed flower fell from his mouth, it was different from the others, it was a bright, beautiful, pink flower with perfect petals, not a single one damaged. Kirishima gulped a little after it had come out making him wince once again from the pain in his throat and he couldn't hug Bakugo anymore, his body was just too tired. Bakugo's eyes widened, his heart fluttered on his chest seeing that beautiful flower and stared back at Kirishima. The blond managed to stop crying and smiled weakly with his shaky lips "I-I l-love yo-you too, Kirishima E-Eijiro".  Even if Kirishima couldn't hug him back, Bakugo still had his arms wrapped firmly around him.

"P-Please t-t-take me back to the dorms. I'm s-so hungry and t-tired, I w-wanna see everyone and let them k-know I'm ok." Kiri said with a weak voice but he had a little smile on his lips now. "It's okay now, I'll take you back I promise. And we'll talk better about this, just stop speaking so you don't hurt yourself anymore and I'll cook you all the soups you want" Bakugo said, using an unknown soft tone. "I'll also n-need someone to h-help me speak wh-while my throat heals... and I-I want it t-to be y-you, Bakugo..." With that final sentence, Kirishima's words seemed to fade from his lips. "I'll be your words then".

One of the nurses came into the room since he had pressed that button earlier. "Sir, you need to lay down until your breathing is better. You are free to leave once we finish with a final check up. I assume you'll be the one mainly in charge of making him take his liquid medication?" She pulled a bottle out from one of her pockets, it had a prescription label on it with Kirishima's full name and instructions on how much and how often he needed to take it. His attention was dragged to what the nurse said and nodded "give me that" he snatched the prescription out of her hands and saved it on his pocket. "I'll finished checking your vials, then if you'd like I can bring up a wheelchair so you don't have to put any more strain on your body. You're gonna be just fine." The nurse said with a smile as she placed Kiri down onto the bed flat on his back and checked his vitals.

When other nurses came in, Sero, Kaminari and Recovery Girl did as well. They all gathered around but had this relieved faces and happy smiled "we heard it all" Denki said, making Bakugo's face turn bright red and he was sweating so much from the nervousness that he couldn't control his blasts that started happening being little. "F-Fuck off, Dunce Face!" He used his hand that automatically was making small blasts and punched Kaminari. Bakugo's cheeks and nose were red from crying and his eyes were swollen and glossy. Recovery asked for permission to heal the boy now that his disease had been cured so she was lifted by Sero and softly gave Eijiro a long sweet kiss using her quirk to make his throat and longs heal "you will feel a little pain but it'll go away in a couple days, honey. I'm glad you're okay..." she said, smiling at the redhead. He stayed still as Recovery Girl used her quirk on him once again making him extremely tired and groggy once again. He nodded his head softly at her words and his eyes soon enough couldn't help but close on him and he fell asleep once again. They letted Kiri rest and sleep for a while and after a few hours passed, they took him back to the dorms.

When he woke up and was taken back to the dorms, he had brought the small notepad and the pencil with him that the nurses gave him to write on and he still had something hooked up to him to help his breathing just to be safe and once he saw everyone else in the common area he smiled weakly. Kirishima picked up a hand and waved at them all as he weakly tried to say hi but the word didn't come out properly, his voice was still so quiet and his throat was slightly swelled up, making proper words harder to say. So in the end, a very faint "ahy" came from his lips and he sighed. Soon reaching that hand to tap Bakugo so he'd say hi for him. He looked down to his small notepad and wrote down for Bakugo. 'Tell them that I want to hangout in the common area for a while; they can ask any questions they want and tell them that the doctor advised me to not use my voice much and make sure to thank Recovery Girl for me' he handed Bakugo the paper with a smile as he looked back to everyone else and pointed to his throat then to Bakugo right beside him. He wanted to say hi to everyone so bad in his usual happy, loud, cheery voice but he just couldn't. And seeing all the looks on their faces, his first instinct would have been to quickly go and comfort all of them with his words and reassure them he'd be ok, he was just a bit fragile right now. But yet again, he couldn't.

Bakugo had to be his words for a little while so that meant he was definitely going to be writing a lot more drinking lots of tea and eating soup.