HURT(BTS PACK, BTS×JIN)

CHAPTER 1

Jin's POV:

It was another day of mine filled with hatered,
that I receive from everyone around me and that's what i'm doing right now ,

in the practice room practicing DNA's choreography with our choreographer as all the rest of the members left leaving me all alone as always.

Ain't I pathetic.

No jinnie don't say that they are our mates they love us I ...I can tell..

Said my wolf to me ,

oh how I hate my wolf side only I know that it makes me weak and pathetic to the core .

My Human already knows the truth and is numb to all these feelings,

but how in the fucking world do I convince my wolf to stop this,

to stop waiting for them to reciprocate the feelings.

"WELL YEAH JINNIE WHY SHOULD I SAY ANYTHING BAD ABOUT THOSE FUCKING MATES OF MY .

JUST WHY,

WHY AM I STUCK WITH THEM,

AND ALSO YOU ,

THEY CALL ME NAMES,

HIT ME AND WHAT NOT.

JUST SEE THE CURRENT SITUATION,

THEY LEFT ME ALL ALONE AFTER SCREAMING AT ME FOR BEING USELESS,

PENTING THEIR ANGER AND STRESS OUT THERE ON ME AND THEN WHAT,

THEY BECAME ALL LOVEY DOVEY WITH EACH OTHER AND WENT OUT ,

BUT ...BUT WHAT ABOUT ME ?

WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE IT JUST BECAUSE I LIKE TO BE HAPPY AND BECAUSE MY BEHAVIOUR ANGERS THEM THEY DO ALL THIS.

THIS DOESN'T JUSTIFY THEIR ACTIONS AND ,

YOU WHEN THEY DO ALL SUCH THINGS TO ME YOU MAKE SURE I DON'T SAY OR DO ANYTHING MAKING ME,

A SUBMISSIVE OMEGA IN THIER EYES.

I HATE IT.

I HATE THEM,

AND I HATE YOU TOO JINNIE.",

I say to the wolf within me who like always just keeps quiet .

With a sigh I continue practicing as the choreographer continues to give me instructions and yells at me when I do some steps wrong.

" OK ,Enough Jin, I know you can't really do anything good at all but still for now its ok as i'm done with you .

Also from tomorrow onwards a new guy is going to teach you as i'm done with your pathetic self.

Try to be a bit less worthless infront of him."

He said to which I didn't really reply as I was already so exhausted from all the practice and after taking a bit rest .

I made my way towards the dorm by the time I reached the dorm it was already 3  in the morning well I guess I will as always only get 2 hours of sleep and so I made my way to the storage room my now room.

Well, yeah at first I used to share the room with Yoongi when things were great with us ,

when they didn't hate me,

but after this all started they made me to shift into the storage room to increase my suffering saying they don't even want to see my face early in the morning as it just ruins their day.

As I went inside the room and lied down I couldn't help but to tear up a bit .

Well the only thing left for my poor self is left to do is only to cry and either feel numb or painful these are the only things left for me to feel.

I j..just want a to end all of this .

I'm too much of a coward to kill myself ,

as i'm scared of pain ,

I also want to feel loved to have the same love that I once used to get from my members ,my mates but then they changed they stopped loving me ,

just like my pathetic wolf I  also waited for them but much to my disappointment they never loved me again ,

I got disappointed and hurt and then I stopped,
and soon enough all my love turned to anger but my wolf Jinnie never let me show my hate towards them .

I feel soo weak and frustrated because of all of this.

With all these thoughts in my mind as I was trying to sleep which I obviously didn't get any it was already 7 am as my alarm clock went on indicating it's time for my today's portion of suffering to begin,

and so I quickly got freshened up and after I got ready I made my way towards the kitchen to do the same routine I always do,

make food for the members ,
clean up the whole dorm ,
and wash their clothes and ,

all the work would end up by 9 ,

and then I go to see if any food is left for me to eat ,

if yes I would eat them if not them I won't get any breakfast as i'm not allowed to sit and eat with them I tried to eat once with them only to get bruises all over my body which was painful as hell.

So I decided to never sit with them again as I hate getting beaten it's a lot painful.

By 9:30 all the other members already left with the manager to the company as I am supposed to go alone to the company ,

they would always try to ignore meeting me as it causes them to get angry so they just hate seeing me ..

The only time we used to get to see each other was during practice ,

but now I won't even be able to do that as from today onwards I will start to practice with a new choreographer in the practice room and only will see them to practice the choreography with them to see if its better and if I need to change some things.

So I went inside the other practice room rather that the one with the others and saw our dance choreographer there with another person with is most likely the new choreagrapher,

I gave the two smile and bowed a bit ,

"So Jin this is Lee Jong Suk, the one to teach you the choreo and I hope you listen to him properly and do you best.
I will now take my leave.",

said the Choreographer, and made his way outside the room.

I looked at Jong Suk only to see him staring at me and as if I caught him he looked away as his face grew red which caused me to chuckle as I moved my hand in front of him and said,

" Hello,Jong Suk-shi its my pleasure to work with you I hope we get along.",

I said and gave him a smile to which he returns a  smile as well while shaking hands.

"So lets get to Work Jin-Shi",

he said .

Oy if I knew that the entry of Lee Jong-Suk will be the start of a lot of things within my life.

(Hello to my lovely readers this is your Author-nim and here is an update for you all i'll try to update as much as possible when I find free time😅😅😅😅😅.
For now i'll take my leave meet u in next update.
Bts Forever .
Army forever.
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