Divergent: Supernatural #wattys2015

Chapter 10

Tobias POV

When she falls asleep, I carefully lay her on the bed. She stirs then falls back asleep. I get up and go to the living room. I lay down on the couch. My baby girl. Injured. Because of me. I text Shauna to ask her about taking care of Matt today. Soon enough, I fall asleep on the couch.

I wake up to a bunch of screaming. Its sort of strained. Tris. I jump up and sprint in the room. Nightmare. I gather her in my arms and I sit. "Shhh...." I coo, trying to wake her. "Wake up, please baby." I beg and I shake her gently. Her eyes snap open and focus on me. She throws her arms around me and I hold her to me. "Shhh..." I coo in her ear as she sobs. "Tobias." she sobs in my ear. "I know, baby." I whisper to her and she wheezes. She looks at me and touches my cheek. "Were you crying?" She asks gently. I shrug, "probably in my sleep." I reply and wipe my eyes.

"What happened?" she asks weakly. "I had a bad dream, too. It's nothing." I assure. If I tell her that I had a nightmare about me abusing her and Matt, I'd never hear the end of it. "Its something. Tobias, baby, you never cry." she says softly, damn her observations. "I'm fine." I kiss her gently. She pushes me away and I'm hurt. "What happened?" she snaps, harshly. "I had a nightmare about Marcus." I say flatly and she softens up. "Baby, I-" I shake my head. "It's fine." I put her down and leave the room.

I go in Matt's room and I close the door behind me. I slide down the door and look at the empty crib. "Tobias, let me in. Please." she pleads through the door. I don't answer. "Please, Tobias. I'm sorry." She begs. "Go away!" I snarl. "No. Baby-" I slam my palm on the door. "Go away!" I yell at her. I hear a sob, then a heart pounding. Tris'. "I'm sorry." she sobs and I hear her run off. Scared her. I don't bother saying sorry. I've played the 'I'm sorry' card too many times. I go and pick up Matt from Shauna's.

I get home and Matt looks around. "Mommy?" he calls and I sigh. I put him down in his crib and he stands, holding the bars. "Mommy!" he calls and Tris comes in. I slip out silently and go in our room. I rest until I hear: "Mommy lo Daddy?" Matt asks, "of course, buddy." Tris replies. Then, "Daddy lo Mommy?" I hear Tris sigh, "I don't think so." I close my eyes, resting my elbows on my knees.

Later that night, I change into my sweats and I pull off my shirt. The door opens, Tris comes in. "Catch." I toss the shirt to her and she catches it. When she thinks I'm not looking, she breathes the shirt in. Tris has this attachment to my smell. She changes in the shirt and takes her pants off. I lay under the covers and she joins me. Tris shuts off the light and I wrap my arms around her from behind. She stiffens then relaxes. She scoots back so she is closer, then turns to face me. My hand is now literally above her butt, I have to resist the temptation to move my hand on her butt.

She nuzzles in my neck and kisses it gently. I sigh from delight. She gently takes my jaw and turns my head. "Tris, what-" her lips connect with the sensitive skin on my throat. I moan loudly and she hitches her leg over my hip. I close my eyes and she smiles. I hold her thigh with one hand, the other stays around her waist. "Tris..." I moan and she kisses my ear. I moan softly. She runs her tongue on the outside of my ear. I moan and turn my head into her. She grips my jaw and forces my head back. Her lips go back to my ear and I clutch her closer.

She blows very lightly on the wet skin. The cool breeze feels good and I try to turn my head back to her, but she has a firm grip on my jaw. "Tris..." I moan really loud into her shoulder. She forcefully unhitches her leg and she kisses my side. I moan softly and she runs her tongue on my hipbone. I moan really really loud and I hear soft crying. "Tris.. We woke Matt up.." I moan and she turns on the light, grinning. "No, you woke Matt up. Can't be any quieter." I blush and she pecks my lips. "Be right back." She leaves and I lay on my stomach. I bury my head in the pillow to hide my blush. From no one in particular.

I feel a light weight on my waist then soft lips kiss my Dauntless tattoo. I moan into the pillow as she moves down to the Abnegation one. She shifts and keeps going lower. I moan loudly and I squeeze my eyes shut. "You're going to wake Matt again." She scolds and kisses my Amity tattoo, right above the waistband. I moan louder and she kisses my side. "Shhh...." She kisses up my side and up my arm. I clench the sheets and moan again. She kisses my shoulder.

"On your back, c'mon." She gets off me and I obey. She strokes my cheek when I don't open my eyes. "You okay, baby?" She asks, worried. "Did I do something?" I shake my head and I sit up. "No, no. It's nothing." I can't help the images of hurting her, flashing through my brain. "I did something." my eyes snap open. "You didn't do anything." I say, quickly. "No, I did." she snaps and leaves. I lay back. I guess she did, but it wasn't intentional. When we get intimate, those pictures just naturally come to me. I get up and I find her on the couch, head in her hands. I go up behind her and I wrap my arms around her. I lean in to her ear and she shivers. "You didn't do anything, gorgeous." I kiss her neck and she moans softly.

She reaches back and curls her fingers in my hair. "C'mere." she turns and I pick her up. I take her in the bedroom and lay her on the bed. I kiss her and she runs her hands over my bare skin. An image of hurting her comes to me right when she squeezes my hips and gropes my belt. I cringe, breaking the kiss. She looks away and I kiss her again. Her tongue demands entrance as she undoes my belt. She takes my jeans off and another image comes to me. I cringe and sit up, covering my face with my hands. "I'm sorry." she says softly and I shake my head then sob. Her arms wrap around me and I hold her close to me.

"You didn't do anything." I kiss her temple and sob. "Shh.." she coos, "What's wrong, baby?" I feel her lips brush against my jaw. Another image. I cringe, sobbing harder. "Marcus." I manage to croak and she takes a second. "What do you mean?" She asks, playing with my hair. I shake my head and I nuzzle in her neck. My shaking hands find their way to carefully lay at her waist. "Babe." She starts, sternly. She pulls back and I look in her eyes. Tears well in her eyes. I get up, "Babe, wait." She reaches out and I leave. I go in Matt's room, slamming and locking the door.

He wakes up and cries. I sigh and give him his favorite stuffed dog. Tris says it smells like me. Matt holds it to his chest and falls asleep. I hear a soft knock. "Baby, open the door." She pleads and I don't answer. I grab a black shirt and sweats from Matt's mini couch. I put them on and I open his window. I go to him and I kiss his forehead. "I love you, Matt." I brush a hand over his forehead. I perch on his window and tears fall down my cheeks. "I love you, Tris." I say louder and I hear her unlocking the door. I jump and land on my feet. I sprint off and go in the woods. I scale a tree and sit, high up. I lay my head back on the bark. I cry softly.