Cassandra's POV
As I entered Xander's room I go straight in the bathroom to take a shower. I strip and let the cold water wash away the blood. I look at my shoulder to see red bite marks on my shoulder blade but it was almost healed meaning the bite marks will disappear as they were never there. As the water droplets ran down my face my eyes take me back to the fight scene. I place my head in my hands.
What have I done?
I think and look at my hands starting to shake. I just fought someone to an extent of stabbing her, why? only because I was... jealous. Is this who I am? Was Victoria right? Am I ..... Am I a Monster? I gasp and tears form in my eyes. My body starts shaking and slowly after washing my hair and doing the essentials I get out of the shower and wrap a towel around me. I stare at myself in the mirror.
What have you done, Cassandra?
My hands form a fist and I dug my nails in my palms enough to draw out blood. I look at myself in the mirror with disgust. She was right to look at me that way. I don't deserve anything. Me, Cassandra Primrose, a broken girl with daddy issues and panic attacks and a dead mother with nightmares and scars that run down my body. I a mess. My head starts to throb and I clench my teeth to avoid breaking the mirror.
"Rose? Love? Everything okay?" Xander's voice and the sound of knocking on the door breaks me out of my thoughts and I unclench my fists immediately. The nail marks start to heal and I wash my hands to get rid of the blood. I tighten the towel around me and open the bathroom door. Xander was pacing near the bed and I go straight in the closet to dress my self up.( A/N The outfit above.)
I step out dressed and Xander comes towards me holding my face in his hands making me look at him.
"What's wrong?" He asks with worry and I stare at him. His face laced with worry. His eyebrows knitted in confusion and lips forming a frown. I realize how much I have gotten attached to him in a matter of days. I have accepted him as my Mate and more than that I have accepted him as a part of me hence when Victoria showed interest in him I was insecure of losing him, losing a part of me. I push Xander away with tears in my eyes.
"This is all your fault!" I say and when he comes closer I pull back. He gives me a confused look and says,
" What happened? You were happy a while ago and What is my fault?" He again try's to hug me but I back away.
" Exactly! Why? Why was I happy? I hurt someone and I took pride in it. I hurt someone over a stupid emotion of jealousy and insecurity! Victoria was right. I AM A MONSTER. And It is because I have unconsciously accepted you a part of me and now ... now I can't let anyone even look at you without feeling hurt. But.... You're supposed to be Mine. You're supposed to be My Happiness, My love, My miracle, My mate and My savior. Then why do I have to fight, hurt or forcibly make others admit that you can't be theirs? Why is it that I have to hear doubts about not deserving you even by myself? Why is it so hard for me and people to see that I am not a piece of trash? Am I broken beyond repair?" I laugh dryly and run my fingers though my hair.
"Oh Rose, What- " A knock interprets Xander and we both look at a smiling Sophie standing at the door. Her smile drops at soon as she realizes what she walked into.
"Oh- Sorry.. Um.. I didn't know. I'll just go." Sophie turns backs but Xander stops her.
"Wait. Did you need anything, soph?" Xander asks softly and she stops in her tracks then turns around facing him and smiles sadly.
" No. I mean Yes. I was just ... I was hoping to spend some time with Cassie. But I am so sorry. I'll leave you guys." She says and I quickly straighten myself and smile at her.
" Hey, It's Okay. Can you wait for me outside? I'll be there in a minute." I reply and before she could say It's fine Xander mind links her stopping her from saying anything and she leaves us. Xander hugs me and this time I let him. I hug him tightly as if he was breath and I was choking.
"I will always be there for you. No matter what and you deserve the world, Cassandra. I can without doubt say that if you don't deserve happiness or love or this pack or every other thing Victoria said then no one and I mean NO ONE deserves to even live." He whispers in my ear placing a kiss on neck and I tighten my hold on him.
"I-" I stop in my sentence not knowing what to even reply and he pulls back. Places a kiss on my forehead and smiles at me.
"Go. We'll discuss this later. You'll feel better I'm sure." He says and I nod.
" Thank you, Alexander." I say and he frowns at me.
" Never again say thank you to me. It's my duty. Now go, love." He says and I nod going after Sophie. I stop before exiting the room and look back at Xander and he does something I wanted my mate to do for a long time.
He blows me a kiss.
Sooo, this is me trying to make up for the time I didn't update. Hence I wrote two chapters together.
Hope you like it. Please comment, vote and share it will mean the world to me. Also, this isn't edited so feel free to point out any mistakes.
I look forward to your feedback.
Love, Izzy.
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