I plugged in my headphones and let it play on random. I miss you by blink182 came on as I waltzed to my dresser.
I pulled out a pear of sweats and one of lukes shirts he forgot at my house a while ago. when we were in highschool he used to sleep over at my house and we'd watch random movies on Netflix.
I pulled off my clothes and changed.
The loud ring from my phone interrupting my music made me remember I was supposed to call my mom.
mom:
I miss you honey! you were supposed to call me.
to: mom
I miss you too.
growing up she was a bitch 98% of the time. she didn't believe that when i said I was going to do something in life, that I really would. she was too lazy to help me meet audrey when i was younger so we just had to wait and it sucked.
being sucked out of my thoughts,
I felt a familiar pair of arms wrap around my waist and a face nuzzle into my neck. I pulled out my headphones and turned around to see what he wanted.
" yes? " I blushed
" can we cuddle? " he whispered
it was 3:00 in the morning and everyone was asleep.
" why are you up so late? " I smiled
" Does it matter? " he said grabbing my hand and walking me over to my bed.
we laid down and he wrapped his arms around me.
" zoey " he whispered after a few minutes of silence.
" yeah luke? "
" I'm glad I came here with you " he said kissing my shoulder.
" me too " i smiled
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" Audrey! we weren't supposed to leave the pancakes on that long! " I said waving a dish towel and hoping our fire alarm wouldn't go off.
" sorry I was trying to get these clothes folded! "
" here I'll do it "
then we argued about who was a better cook until she finally gave in. she threw away the burnt pancakes and started to make some new ones.
I started to fold clothes when I realized what I had picked up.
" holy " I said in shock
" what? " she laughed from the kitchen
" calums ass is ginormous!! "
" what was that? " he said rubbing his eyes as he walked to the kitchen.
" nothing " I laughed
he walked over to Audrey and wrapped his arms around her.
" how'd you sleep? " she asked as he started to help her cook.
" I'm going to go get dressed " I said as I folded the last t-shirt.
I stopped as I got to my bedroom door.
I heard doubt by twenty one pilots playing.
I smiled because it was one of my favorite songs at the moment. I walked in to find luke brushing his teeth and dancing around my room.
"is there any reason while you're in my room?" i stopped outside my room, leaning against the frame. lucas flashes me a smile before pushing passed me to get into the bathroom. i watched as he rinsed before turning back to me.
"i share a room with calum when your room is much nicer. it also smells better."
"we moved in yesterday. how does it already smell?" i laughed.
"have you smelled that kid's damn shoes?" he flopped back down onto my small bed.
"okay but i like my room to myself. so, go back to your smelly mancave with calum."
he sighed loudly before scooting off and standing up. "fine."
i watched as the six foot boy lumbered down the hallway and into his own room before i raced to audrey's. i threw open the door.
"what the hell, zoey? i could've been naked."
i snorted. "or having sex."
she shoot me the death glare before sitting on her bed. she glanced at me before motioning to the spot beside her.
"tell momma audrey all about it."
i rolled my eyes at her dumb comment. "okay, so i really like luke. is it obvious? but i don't think he likes me. i mean i just think he thinks we're really good friends. i've always semi liked luke. i mean that childhood crush, you know? i'm just in a pickle. oh, now i want pickles. okay, im rambling. im done now."
audrey sat there for a few seconds, ran her hand through her bangs, and shook her head. "why wasn't i notified about your lucas crush sooner? also, i think he might like you. honestly, i think luke might be a player. i get that vibe from him."
i paused to take in her words. i thought about all the girls luke messed around with in highschool. he never stuck with one girl. i pulled at the ends of my hair. me and luke shared a bed all the time and i never failed to realize everytime, i would wake up alone.
i leaned back onto the other pillow as i tugged at my bracelets. "i don't mean to upset you. i could be wrong about this dude."
i shook my head before rolling on my side to face her. "no. i think you might be right."
she gave me a sad smile before sitting up. we heard calum call her name from the other. "i'm going to go see what he wants. come find me if you need me."
i nodded. i layed there for a few minutes longer before making my way back to my own room. i slowly shut my door behind me and took in my walls. it was a basic white walled room with dark brown carpet. my bed was in one corner and a dresser across from it. i had a small closer by my door. basic but it was home.
i heard a knock and i already knew who it was. i opened it to find that small damn lip ring and stubble meeting my vision. i glanced up to meet his eyes.
"hi." i murmured.
"zoey, the love of my life. i'm in desperate need of cuddles."
i pretended like i didn't notice his choice of words. after all, it's not like he fancied me back or anything. i shuffled my feet and took a step away from the door.
"now isnt a good time."
a crease formed between his brows and he brought his left arm above his head to lean against my doorframe. "now is a perfect time. the lovely couple went out to scope out cat places. since calum is from around here."
i turned away from him and just closed my eyes. he can't know i'm hurting or how i feel. i'd ruin this entire friendship. "well, in that case, cuddle time it is."
i crawled onto my side of the bed. i inhaled as he wrapped his arms around my waist. even my pillows smelled like him. he buried his face in the crook of my neck.
"cuddle buddies for life, right?"
i felt as if my lungs were beginning to fill with water. all the words i should be letting fall from my lips remained frozen. "right."
we laid there in silence and luke entwined our legs together. light snores fell from his lips soon after we settled in. i bit my lip and snuggles closer into his embrace. he felt it and tightened his grip. this is the closest i would ever get to really being his. and if this is it, ill take whatever i can get.
