BxB I Will Never Find Another You Completed

Chapter 12

"Alan..." Aaron whispered and shook me lightly, "Wake up."

"No..." I whined and shoved my head further into the pillow. I hurt all over and I knew that if I moved I would throw up.

"Come on...you have band practice and you need to take a shower first," Aaron pulled my covers away from me, "So get your pale ass up, we need to talk."

I sighed and unwillingly sat up. As soon as I did, I could feel the blood pounding in my head in the most agonizing way...how the fuck was I going to do practice today with this hangover? I stood up slowly but that didn't stop my stomach from churning.

"Uh-oh," I said before running past Aaron and towards our bathroom. I got there just in time to throw up the contents from my stomach into the toilet. I groaned and rested my head against the cool tiles as I tried to remember everything that happened last night. It was all a bit of a blur but for some reason...I think Austin was there. Was he?

I brushed my teeth before stepping in the shower to try and wash the alcohol smell away. Last night was starting to become clear and I remember Austin finding me at the club. He also took me home...oh God. Austin. I was so unbelievably confused about him. I remember hearing him tell Shay yesterday that he loved him and it made me feel...like shit.

I felt like shit. I actually felt...something and it was because of Austin. Yet again. Oh no. Oh no, no, no, no, no, no. This can't be happening! I've spent 3 years getting over him and I finally managed to be in a place where I wasn't so emotionally vulnerable but now...I don't even know. I didn't love him anymore...I know that. I was just...slightly jealous. I needed to swallow these stupid emotions and get back to the place I was before I knew Austin was in Orange County. Before he intruded in my life and fucked everything up again.

I towel dried my hair and quickly changed into some clothes before walking out to the kitchen. I desperately needed some aspirin if I was going to be around instruments all day.

"Alan, we need to talk about last night," Aaron followed me.

"Look, I'm sorry for getting drunk when I knew I had practice today," I sighed, "And I'm sorry that I worried you."

I took some aspirin before pouring a cup of coffee and sitting at the breakfast table. Aaron sat opposite me and his eyes softened.

His sighed, "I know it feels like I'm constantly nagging you...but I am just worried. You normally tell me if you're going out. I even rang Austin to see if you were with him and I guess...that he was worried too because he went looking for you."

"I'm sorry," I was sincere, "It was just...a rough day."

He took my hand, "I haven't seen you like that in months...what bought it on?"

I shuffled around, "It's nothing."

"Alan...tell me," He demanded.

"I-I heard Austin tell Shay that he loved him," I admitted, "It just...hit me harder than I thought it would."

He looked at me in disbelief, "Have you developed feelings for him?"

"I don't think they really left," I admitted, "They've faded but...they're still there. I've tried shutting them out for 3 years and I thought I had but...even you could see that he was the one thing that could elicit any form of emotion from me."

"Oh Alan..." He sighed and squeezed my hand, "I know you're going to hate me for this but...I am so fucking relieved."

I looked at him in disgust, "You're relieved that I still have feelings for the singer of my band who is dating our bassist?"