BxB I Will Never Find Another You Completed

Chapter 15

9 days. It had been 9 days since I'd had sex with Austin. And it had also been 9 days since he had talked to me. It was heart-breaking to say the least. Every time we had band practice he would avoid me completely and he acted like I didn't exist...and he was still with Shay. I could barely meet Shay's eyes, I felt horrible about what we had done. He didn't deserve that...that's why Austin should have been honest with him. But he was obviously worried about the band and I could understand that. It wasn't just our future on the line it was Phil and Tino's too.

It was nearing the end of band practice now and as per usual, Austin was avoiding me. I felt like he was angry at me but it takes two to tango. He can't solely blame this on me...that would be fucked up. I didn't cheat, he was the one who had cheated. But...I did know he had a boyfriend and his boyfriend happens to be one of the nicest guys you could ever meet. This sucked.

"I'm just going to the bathroom..." Austin smiled briefly but it soon dropped. He had been like that all week. The guilt was obviously eating away at him. He wasn't his usual chirpy self...he was down and moody. I watched him walk over to the bathroom and decided that I needed answers. He can't just avoid me...he needed to face what he had done.

I told the guys that I also needed the bathroom before following him in there. He was just zipping up his pants before turning to face me. His eyes widened but he soon avoided my gaze.

"What do you want, Alan?" He began to wash his hands at the sink.

"I want you to talk to me..." I replied, "Why have you been avoiding me?"

He just shrugged and continued to wash his hands.

"Austin, fucking look at me!" I demanded.

He sighed before finally meeting my eyes, "What do you want me to say?"

I scoffed in disbelief, "I can't tell you what to say! I just want you to explain why you've been avoiding me!"

"Isn't it obvious?!" He exclaimed before whispering, "Alan...what we did was wrong."

It hurt me for him to say that it was wrong when it was the best I'd felt in a long time.

"I know it's not an ideal situation-," I said.

"Ideal situation?!" He repeated, "Alan it's far from-."

"But it happened," I interrupted, "It happened and you need to man up and face it."

He glared slightly at me, "Because it's just that easy. I should just go up to Shay and say 'yeah so I fucked my ex-."

"Fucked?" I repeated, "Did you fuck me? Really? That's all it was...a fuck?"

Austin's expression softened, "...No and you know that."

"Then why have you been avoiding me?" I whispered, "It kind of...sucks."

"I know," He gulped, "I'm sorry..."

I folded my arms across my chest as I looked at him, "I just...need to know where we stand..."

"We need to forget that it happened," He told me.

I felt my heart drop, "And...that's what you want?"

He took a step towards me and wiped some of my hair away from my eyes. He realised what he was doing and moved away from me.

"Yes...it's what I want," He gulped.

"I don't believe you..." I shook my head, "You can't just do a sweet gesture like that and then act like you don't care!"

"I never said that I didn't care!" He argued, "But, what were you expecting to happen? That I'd dump Shay and we could be together?!"