Cold Seatmate || Kang Taehyun

C H A P T E R - 31

"Arrange marriage?" Han asked as I nod, crying. "I'm sorry" he said caressing my back.

"I don't even know what to do"

"You know, if you feel like it's worth fighting for no matter what the odds are or you just want to give up, I'll always have your back" Han said. "Moreover, you're still young and you got loads coming your way, you want Taehyun to tag along or wha-"

"Han, I- I love him"

I kinda feel embarrassed to say that to him of all people but I couldn't help it. I could tell that he's a bit shocked and wasn't really expecting it.

"You love him? Then what are you going to do?"

"I don't know. I don't wanna cause him any more trouble. As much as I love him, I think I should just...break up with him. I, I don't deserve him"

"Oof- not that. You don't have anyone you don't deserve. Your situation just sucks. Whatever it is, you need to talk to him. I'll let him in, I'll go up to my room"

"No. I should head out instead" I said.

"Okay, cry don't. If things don't work out with him, you still got Jeongin" he teased, laughing.

"Stop it" I scoffed, wiping my tears away.

"What?" He exclaimed.

I stand up wearing my hoodie.

"I'm so nervous Han"

"Don't be! Just go out and words will automatically come inside your mind" he smiled as I take a deep breath and walk out.

I don't know what I'm going to do and I don't even know what to expect. My heart's just racing so fast. I open the gate seeing Taehyun as I quickly look down to the ground.

"What wouldn't you turn on your phone?" He asked. I did not know what to say as I just shake my head lightly. "I'm sorry. I understand but please, hear me out" he continued taking my hands.

"Taehyun" I look at him in the eyes. "There's nothing we can do. It's better if we just take a break" I said, feeling hurt and I really could see him hurt and disappointed in me from his eyes.

"Why?" He asked.

"That's, the right thing to do and we'd need to break up anytime soon, anyway" I just can't believe I'm saying these.

He looked down as I saw his tears in his eyes. He furrowed his brows as he let my hands go off.

"Okay" he said turning away as I watch him walking away. It wasn't easy. I never wished for this day to come even when I'm overthinking for the worst. I never dared to lose him. But now, I did. I lost him. And there's no turning back and I'm pretty sure that he won't either although it'd be harder for him more than for me. His pride is all he got.

The cold wind and snow hitting me is nothing compared to my heart breaking inside. How hard it's beating and the hot pressure running in my blood.

I let out a deep sigh as my tears are falling.

What have I done?

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