I have to do this. It's either risk it or lose it. And I don't want to lose my last shot at happiness. I need to lure my bestfriend into sleeping with me. We need to spend a night together making love. Well, at least making love in my part since this a one-sided love affair. It's sad to think that I will betray my bestfriend this way. Sana lang talaga kung sakali man na malaman niya ay mapatawad niya ako.
Inayos ko ang soot kong white v-neck tee shirt. Sobrang fitted nun sa katawan ko kaya kitang-kita ang curves ko. Sabi nga sa akin nila Dada at oppa mukha akong babae lalo na't babaeng-babae ang hubog ng katawan ko. Though I don't have that thing called woman boobs. And I'm thanking God for that. Okay na sa akin yung thing between my thighs. I wore my skinny jeans and paired it with my fav sneakers. There, perf! Tiningnan ko ang repleksyon ko sa salamin. Jesus H. Christ, I look so hot. I hope my looks can seduce Jongshin...
"Soo, bakit tayo babalik sa club na yun? Last time na nagpunta tayo bago pa tayo makapasok e naiyak ka na."
Sinulyapan ko si Jongshin na nakakunot ang noo. Mahigpit ang kapit niya sa manibela. I know for a fact that he hates clubbing. Sa totoo lang nagtataka ako kung bakit kami naging magkaibigan. He is clearly the polar opposite of me. He loves to read, I don't. He loves to attend mass every Sunday, I prefer to sleep my Sunday away. He loves to watch freaking sci-fi films and fantasy films, I prefer to watch porn. Siguro nasanay na lang siya sa presensya ko dahil sa magkatabi lang ang mga bahay namin. We've been neighbours since day one of our lives. Close friend pa ni dada ang daddy ni niya na si Uncle Joonmyeon.
"Soo, hey, are you listening?"
I was pulled back to reality. Dun ko lang napansin na nasa tapat na pala kami ng club. Tanggal na ang seatbelt ni Shin at nakaharap na ito sa akin. Worry etched his beautiful face. Oh, now I remember why I fell in love with him. Dahil yun sa mga mata niya. His set of deep brown eyes which captured my heart. His eyes that can see through my soul. It's been 12 years since I realised how in love I am with him. 12 years of being close to him and yet feeling so far still.
"Soo?"
Naramdaman ko ang kamay niya na humaplos sa pisngi ko. Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya na iyon at inilapit ito sa labi ko. I kissed the palm of his hand while staring at him. I love you... I was the first one to look away. Hindi ko kayang tingnan ang mga mata niya lalo na't gagawa ako ng isang bagay na maaring ikasira ng pagkakaibigan namin.
"Let's go, Shin. Tonight we will party like its the end of the world.." Like its the end of our friendship...
The sound inside the club is not enough to ease the tension I'm feeling right now. I feel like I'm gonna puke all over and cry my tears 'til I'm dry of it. Kabadong-kabado ako sa balak kong gawin ngayong gabi. Hinawakan ko ang ang kanang kamay ni Shin at ipinagsalikop iyon sa akin. Napatingin siya sa akin dahil ginawa ko pero binigyan ko lang siya ng tipid na ngiti.
"May problema ka ba?"
He shouted the words for me to hear. Nagkibit-balikat lang ako at hinatak na siya papunta sa bar. We both sat on the high stool and ordered shot after shot of our desired alcohol drink. Halos hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang baso na ang nainom niya pero sigurado ako na lasing na siya. His eyes are crossed already and he has this goofy smile plastered on his handsome face. His eyeglasses are long forgotten. Ngayon ay mas nakikita ko ang maganda niyang mata. His eyes that captivates my heart. I wasn't that drunk because I cheated on taking shots, and it's a good thing that Jongshin is too naive to realise it.
My heart was beating so fast as I stare at his set of deep brown eyes. Hindi ko namalayan na halos malapit na pala ang mga mukha namin sa isa't-isa. We were inches apart and I can almost smell his liquor with a touch of mint breath. I inched closer and closer... Until our lips met in one fiery kiss.
I'm so sorry, Jongshin.
"Two lines means positive. Shit. Two lines. Oh my... Holy---"
"Bakla ano na? Buntis ka na ba? Nakabuo ba kayo ni Shin?"
Napatingin ako kay Yoona at isang ngiti ang sumilay sa mga labi ko. It's been a three weeks after that night. The night that I seduced my bestfriend into sleeping with me. Kahit na alam kong mali ang ginawa ko ay hindi ko pa rin maikakaila na talagang gusto ko ang nangyari. I don't want to be a hypocrite, I am in love with him and sleeping with him means a lot for me. Kahit na alam kong mali dahil una matalik ko siyang kaibigan at pangalawa ay may girlfriend siya.
"Two lines, Yoona. Two lines."
Tears sprung from my eyes. I already had my hunches a week ago but I waited for another week to prove that my hunches were all correct. And it is! Fuck, 7 out of all 7 pt that j took were all positive. Ibig sabihin nun ay buntis na nga ako. Lumapit sa akin si Yoona at yinakap ako. Tears continued to fall from my eyes. I am so happy. After years and year of wanting a child of my own, finally... I am pregnant.
"So, may plano ka bang sabihin kay Jongshin?"
I stared at her for good five seconds. Sasabihin ko nga ba? I know he has the right to know but he is getting married and I don't want to ruin his happiness... Tsaka una pa lang naman ay magka-anak na talaga ang gusto ko. It is my dream to have my own baby, siguro yung maging kami ni Jongshin ay pangarap na hindi ko kailanman makukuha.
Kinagat ko ang ibabang labi ko at umiling. I have made up my mind. I won't tell Jongshin about our baby. Kaya naman ko naman itong palakihin at alagaan. I am financially stable and I know my parents would understand my situation...I hope.
"No. Ikakasal na siya. I'm a bitch but I'm not a home-wrecker. He is planning to build a family of his own which includes Naeun and their future child--ren, and I'm not included in that. Pati na ang baby ko--- namin."
Hindi na kumibo pa si Yoona at niyakap na lang muli ako. Yea, I badly need a hug.
"Anak, are you okay?"
Tanong ni dada habang hinihimas ang likuran ko. Ugh, ganito pala ang pakiramdam nang morning sickness. Yun bang bumabaliktad ang tyan ko tapos sobrang nahihilo ako.
I flushed the bowl before standing up. Humarap ako sa salamin at nakita ang sariling repleksyon ko. I am...blooming. Yeah right. Mapula yung pisngi ko at may kung anong kislap sa mga mata ko. Nagmumog ako at naghilamos bago tiningnan si dada na nasa likuran ko lang at tahimik na nakamasid.
"Dada, I'm pregnant."
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