bill skarsgård; imagines ✔

twenty-four

a little bit different, not a y/n story, but an oc x bill story. enjoy, friends <3

bill realizes he's in love with her too late.

i lay on my bed, i cant sleep, i haven't been able to sleep in two days because my mind is racing, pounding, aching, because all i have are flashes of her. her smile, the way it lights up the room and fills my body with her warmth, the way her hair is always done up into mini pig tails and how they bounce when she laughs and does the thing where she throws her head back and covers her mouth, her eyes, how i drown in them everytime, they're like an ocean, but i can't stop thinking about how every time we'd accidentally touch it felt like lightning striking down on land, it all crashes down onto me at once,

holy fuck, minerva i'm in love with you.
how could this be? how could you pull me in so deeply? but i remember the last time i saw her, when our lips almost met as rain fell around us, but i pushed away, and all i can remember is the hurt clouding over her eyes, and a pool of tears glossing her blue eyes, she looked down shaking her head and wiping a tear away as she spoke the words "and i thought you possibly felt the same as i did, impossible. how could i be so dumb? i forgot you kiss and forget." i lost my ability to speak, my heart sunk as she turned away from me without speaking another word, my throat closed on me when all i wanted to do was scream that i'm in love with her, scream it again and again, scream that my heart and myself belong to her, that im hers far or near, but she was gone in mere seconds, left alone in the rain i felt my heart distance itself, i filled with nothing but dread and regret.

i walk fastly down the streets of new york city, im not sure how long ago i left my bed and my apartment but the clock read 12:13AM when i did, and now im standing in front of her apartment building with a racing heart, gripping the key to her front door, she has mine, i have hers, emergencies. this is an emergency. i can hear my heartbeat in my ears as i stumble up the stairs that lead to her apartment, my hands shake and my body is trembling, i just cant fuck this up this time. i stand outside her door, inhaling deeply then exhaling, pushing the key in and twisting, then gripping the doorknob, slowly creaking the door open, but i see things i didnt want to see, i drop the key onto the floor, gripping my jacket sleeves, my mind numbs again as i see his hands tracing her body and her hands cupping his face, gasps filling the air and i don't dare look any lower because i know whats going on, they dont even notice me standing there, until i laugh a little and she gasps with fear, not pleasure. she looks into my eyes "bill?" she says roughly "and i thought you felt the same as i did. i came here to tell you how i feel, to apologize but i didn't realize you had other plans with whoever this is" i say bitterly "i-" i pause as i look at her face soften and her eyes go wide, "i love you, minerva. but i have to go now," i say quietly, backing out of the door way unsteady, walking down the stairs as fast as i can "bill, please wait!" she yells, pulling on a hoodie that i recognize as mine, "bill, please" she says, chasing after me. i push open the lobby doors and breathe in the cold air "bill" she says, i can feel her hands on my arm "do you love him? maybe you mistaked him for me when we almost kissed that day" i mumble, she shoves me, "you fucking idiot, bill" is all i hear when her lips meet mine, and its more then lightning striking on land. this, this is pure heaven. i've never felt this, this is the feeling i've been searching for my whole life. no drug could make me feel as good as this.