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Iwaoi - Heartbreaking

Summary : An au where you feels your heart, shatter, whenever the person you fall in love, smile in front of you. It will only stop when you tell them how you really feel. It's a rare thing, only 1/5 people has experienced this.

A/N : I was actually planning on writing a fanfic about this one but I don't have time and this is a finish draft on chapter 1. I probably would never make a fanfic about this, but if you are interested on using this just commented :)! And give credit of course.

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"It's hurts."

I always thought this kind of thing is ridiculous. That it would never happen to anyone because it was just some kind of fairytale, until...I got it myself. Seeing someone I love, smiles, it makes me happy but also make me feeling like every piece of my heart shatter, one by one every time he smiled. I didn't tell him this, I'm scared it will ruin our friendship. The friendship that we built for years.

Loving your own best friend is more hard than you could imagine since you need to see them every day, and you can't just avoid them because it would be suspicious.

I tried dating a lot of girls and boys to get rid of these feelings. But it never worked, of course I feel bad for using them just to let this feelings go. And they were too goddamn good. When I broke up with them, they always said something like
"it's fine",
"thank you for letting me in your life even if it's just for awhile" ,
"I hope you find someone who loves you truly" ,
"Whoever doesn't know about your feelings towards them is missing out".

They're too good for me.

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"Iwa-chan!"

"What do you want, shittykawa?" he said annoyed by me, but still let out a small smile. Auch, that's hurts so bad. Please stop smiling in front of me iwaizumi.

It's not like I'm gonna die or anything if he smile every second. It's just hurt really bad, I might even cry in front of him because of how hurt it is, one day.

"You okay?" he asked, with a questioning look. I guess I was being too obvious about the pain.

"Yeah! Let's go practice now." I said, giving a reassuring smile.

"Were you being to hard on yourself again?" Ah here we go, a caring Iwa-chan. One of the reasons why I love him so much.

"No, it's not that." It's because of you. You goddamn perfect human who loves Godzilla. Who is there for me every time I'm down. Who is absolutely beautiful. Who is the one who takes care of me when I didn't take care of myself. Who is everything to me.

If only you know how I feel towards you.

If only.

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It's funny how you can keep a smile for hours and no one would notice how fake it is. But if the smile change a little bit, someone would notice it. So you need to keep the same smile and don't make even a little bit of mistakes.

One of the things that I teach myself.

I teach myself a lot of things.

How to act strong even when you are not. How to act happy even when you are not. How to act confidence even when you are not. How to not look like you were about to 'cry'. How to politely receive something you hate. How to act like you like someone. How to act like you hate someone. How to fit in. How to do everything perfectly.

There's more.

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We were walking together as we went home. We lived near each other after all.

"Someone asked me out."

"Huh, really?? What was your response, Iwa-chan?" I asked, turning my head to Iwaizumi.

"I'm not sure, so I asked her if it's okay if I think about it." he said, turning his head to me with unreadable face.

"Oh. What do you think of her?" I turn my head away from him.

"She's pretty cute. She's smart. She have so much confidence when she asked me out even tho her eyes showing that she was scared." Oh, looks like your in love. Too bad, it's not me.

"What's her name?" I said, looking down at my feet.

"Mio Izumi." he smiled a little.

Auch, that's really hurt. The pain gotten worse day by day. I just wish I'm not too obvious by it.

"Isn't she like the top 5 in her class?"

"Yeah."

Time to support your best friend. She's nice, I bet she will never jugde him and will stay by his side. I will stay by his side as his best friend. I just wish I could stay by his side as a lover. But you can't always have what you want.

"You should go for it. She's everything you could ask for." I said, smiling.

"I will tell you my decision." he said, letting out a sigh.

"Okay. Just so you know, I'm fine with any of your decision. I just want you to be happy after all." I said, walking faster because my house is near. I couldn't wait to shower, eat dinner and laying down on my bed as I think about what happened today. As I cry myself to sleep.

"Bye, 'Kawa."

"Bye Iwa-chan."