Can't help falling in love with you

■●3 years●■

  It's weird how time works. These past 3 years have felt like a fever dream. I know what happened, the memories are there but I don't really remember doing anything. Yet with all the complications it was sort of nice.

My feeling towards Chris are complicated to say the least. In the public's eyes we are madly in love, going on monthly outings around the city or small dinner 'dates'. He loves me but I dont know if I even like him. In a romantic way.

The demand for kids are coming from all sides, my dad and the Richard's are on my back about it all the time. The Richard's more subtle and kinder, while my father asks more upfront.

Apparently marriage wasn't enough for him, he wants a heir. A male heir to be exact, there has only one female ever in control of the company. It didn't last that long, her own brother killed her for the spot.

Never the less an heir for the company is demanded from me now.

I don't want to do that to a child. Having all this pressure thrown upon them, as their birthright. It's not fair to them.

Chris really wants kids. He says it from time to time. When some of his friends started to have kids he tried to convince me to give it a try. I of course said no. We haven't has any sort of intimate experience between each other. I shut them down as soon as they start.

He isn't my first, but he surely won't be the guy I have any sort of sexual desire or moments with. Unless my emotions some how change

3 years ago we got married. Apart from the constant asking of kids its wasn't entirely bad. We did argue, from time to time, but he apologizes almost immediately and tries to make up for it. Normally with telling me to take the day off and doing things around the house for me. Sort of to show me how sorry he is, its better than back at my parents house so I don't try to complain as much.

We adopted a dog, her name is Ivory ash she's a doberman. Black and brown, I didn't want to make her look like a 'normal/stereotypical' doberman so I didn't get her ears or tail done. She's about 2 and a half years. She's the closest thing we have to a kid. We treat her like one sometimes.

Today was Monday so I had to work today. I woke up and got ready. I decided I wanted to be comfy while working so I but on some leggings, with a while collar shirt under my oversized Harvard jersey and my white slip ons. I headed downstairs to eat some breakfast and was hit with the smell of bread toasting and coffee. I walking into the kitchen to see Chris attempting to make poached eggs.

I smile a little seeing him trying to make it himself, we usually had things done for us but when we moved together decided against having people to do everything for us.

  "Morning" Chris said once he was me with a smile "Morning, what are you trying to make?"

  "I wanted to try an make some avocado toast with a poached egg, but I'm having a hard time with the egg" he said sheepishly. I giggled a little " Here move over" he did as I said and made the eggs. The toast was done and he started to spread the avocado over it and added salt crushed chili flakes and some everything beagle seasoning. I placed the eggs on the toast and put them on the table. Chris was making coffee

  "What are you gonna do today" I ask. Like I said we have a good relationship just not the kind that we're meant to have as a married couple, in honesty we're sort of like bestfriend/roommates.

  "Not much just look over some papers attend a meeting and talk about sales, the usual" he shrugs. "Are you going take breaks today or are you just going to completely forget to take care of yourself today again?" He looked up over his mug to see me with a shocked confused face. "I was taking to your secretary and she told me you didn't leave your office until you left to come home." I stated. "I was busy, I wanted to finish the work before I got home. I'll take care of myself today. I swear" I looked at him trying to see if he was lying, "I'm going over today to eat lunch with you, Owen and my father. Owen arranged it, thought that you should know." He just smiles and  nods. "Well if off to work" I grab my keys and send him a smile which he returns. I head towards the door and called Ivory to come. I take her to work so she isn't alone all day. With a distant sound of pitter patter coming towards me, I open the door and she walks out side.