LISA'S POV
I wanted to run after Jennie but I did not think it was the right time. I gripped the beer bottle tightly and gulped the remaining liquid from it. I closes my eyes as my heart clenched remembering the past, it was as if it just happened yesterday. It was all still feel so fresh.
I was so worried when Jennie didn't show up at school for two straight days. I've been trying to call her numerous times already but her phone number is out of coverage area. I tried calling her house, but nobody answer my calls as well. Her neighbors says that they haven't seen her for the past days. Even her best friend Rosie had no idea where she was. The word worrying is not the right term to describe what I was feeling that time, I was so anxious to the point I can't even sleep at night thinking about what was happening to her that her phone is turned off and nobody knows where she is. I was afraid shitless!
When someone knock at my door and saw that it was her infront of my apartment, I pulled her in my arms and hugged her really tight.
I was astounded when she suddenly started undressing. I couldn't move. I wanted her for so long but I respected her too much to do that to her. I admit, that very first reason why I approached her is because of the dare but when I knew her everything changed. She was worth knowing. She was beautiful inside and out. There was this one time my friends asks me about the progress of my assignment, I couldn't tell that I wanted to back out of our dare. Because I was so sure that they would be teasing me endlessly so I told them that it's going smoothly.
The night she gave herself to me was the happiest day of my life. I've many experienced towards girls but it's not the same when it was with Jennie. It was like coming home for the first time. When my ffriends suddenly appeared to check out on her, I was raging mad. I wanted to punch all of them. How I wanted to erase those malicious grins on their faces with my fist. I was so terrified that Jennie might woke up and learned about my deal with my friends. I was afraid she would get angry and would leave me afterwards. Turns out she already knew about everything and my fear turns out to be true. When I woke up, she was no longer there. She left with nothing but a letter and memories. When I read the letter, it feels like someone had cut my chest open, ripped my heart out and crushed it to pieces. She knew about the dare and she did everything for me to win the bet. The letter kept running in my head over and over again...
It's over long before I thought it even began, you don't have to endure being with me. I thought everything was real turns out I'm just being delusional. I knew about the dare. I did what I have to do. But I want you to know that I love you, I have loved you for so long and I see that I fell in love with the wrong person. I helped you to win the bet, now you get to keep your precious camera, I hope you're happy. Goodbye, Lisa.
-Jennie
I tried looking for her but she was gone. No one could tell where she went. I couldn't stand the accusations in Rosie's eyes when I ask her where Jennie was. I learned that she dropped out of senior high from her classmates. Now I regret it big time for not making things right and admitting that I love her when I had the chance.
For three years, while attending college school, I didn't stopped looking for her, I even hired private detectives but it was of no use either. It was really hard to find someone who didn't want to be found. When the offer to go to Thailand and Switzerland came, I volunteered immediately without thinking twice eventhough I just graduated from college that time, it wasn't that hard to adjust and learn since I'm already working for our company while studying. I thought going somewhere I haven't been with her would help me forget and start all over again. But I was wrong because wherever I go her memories are with me. So I buried myself on my work. I make sure that when I goes home I don't have time to think anymore. For five years, I was like that. It was as if my soul has left my body, like a robot doing it's job, I was existing but no longer living.
It was a telephone call from my mother demanding me to come back home in Korea that brought me back to where it all started.
I was so deep in miseries that I forgot about the existence of my family was also suffering with me. It was then I thought that no matter how much I punished myself it can't bring back what I lost, the time won't come back when I was still with her. My mother told me once, let fate do it's course. When the time comes that I will meet her again, I'll asked for forgiveness and hopefully make everything right.
With a new perspective in life, I filed for a month long vacation and headed back home to Korea. Who would have thought our paths would cross again too soon.
On the first day of my vacation I already see Jennie. But things weren't like I expected them to be. I thought the moment Jennie laid her eyes on me she'll get mad and bring back the past, about the dare, how I used her just for fun, every wrongful things I did to her. I thought I would see anger in her eyes but I was wrong. She was all cool, acting as if nothing happened in the past, I thought I would see anger in her eyes but there isn't instead her eyes were cold, blank and seemed so distant. Her feline eyes were not expressive anymore, they were so far from the way they used to stare at me with so much love and adoration.
She was far from the sweet, simple girl I once knew. She had changed. A lot. If I didn't talk to her, I wouldn't believe that she was really Jennie that I knew. I wanted to apologize right after but she cut me off, hatred filled her eyes. By that, I breathe a sigh of relief. If ever I was the main reason why she changed, I might also be the reason who would bring back the Jennie that I knew.
The way she acted awhile ago, walking out, it only means that the Jennie I knew and loved isn't totally gone yet. I smiled. There was still hope after all.
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A/N:
Sorry for the late update, i pulled an all nighter last night, I'll try to post another one later..
