JENNIE'S POV
I was about to shut the front door of her house closed but Lisa blocked it by using her hand to stop me from doing so. "What are you doing here?" I asked in between clenched teeth.
"I'm here to say I'm sorry." Lisa said apologizing. "Can I come in, please?"
"No. You just said what you came here for, so you may go now." I tried closing the door again but failed.
"Please? Let's talk." Her eyes were pleading. "Please? I promise I won't ever mention anything about marriage. Please?"
I sighed and opened the door widely, letting her in.
"Thank you." She said with a sad smile on her lips.
Jennie shuts the door closed before facing her. "Now, say your piece." I stated then threw her a glance. She still look pretty even with those dark circles around her eyes, lips are dry and clothes a little disheveled.
"I'm sorry."
"That's it? I've already heard that. If you have nothing more to say then leave. I'm going out later." I walked towards my room.
"W-Where are you going?" Lisa inquired. "Y-You have a date?"
"What do you care? It's none of your business. We're not in a relationship, Lisa. I'll go wherever I want to go."
"Why are you doing this to me? Are you trying to get back at me? For what I did to you in the past? I didn't mean to hurt you, Jennie. If only you didn't leave that night, I would've told you the truth. I've loved you back then and I still do, I still love you." Lisa's eyes and voice were full of sincerity but I can't let myself be fooled again. She had learn her lesson. Not everything she see is real. No one can play with her feelings again.
"Oh, really, Lisa? You loved the Plain Jane Jennie? Why am I having a hard time believing that? Isn't that camera of yours more precious than me? You could have told me if you needed another one back then, I could've bought a new one for you." Pain flashes on her face. "Oh, right, you didn't know that I could afford to buy you one. You didn't know because you had no plans of ever knowing me! All you cared about was having fun and good time, right?. I just happen to be at the wrong place and wrong time that's why I became your lastest play thing. I helped you put on a good show back then so just let me be now, Lisa." A teardrop fell on my cheek and I wiped it away instantly.
"I'm sorry." Lisa said then fell down on her knees. "I didn't mean to do all those things to you. We were so young back then. I didn't know I had hurt you this much but I really loved you, Jennie. I've loved you, I know you felt that too. It's just that I didn't know what I was really feeling towards you that time, I just realized it when you were gone." Her voice broke. "You mean everything to me, Jennie. I looked for you but I can't find you anywhere. After two years of searching and still no luck of finding you, I realized then that you didn't want to be found. So I left Korea. You are the reason why I fled out of the country. I thought going somewhere far can help me moved on and forget, but I was wrong. Your memories haunted me."
"Can you blame me if I don't trust you anymore? Since you already said what you came here for. Go. Just lock the door when you leave." Jennie hurriedly went inside her room and sat down on her bed while her tears started falling down on her cheeks mercilessly. She didn't mean to put all the blame on Lisa but she just can't control herself anymore. All of the hurtful things and feelings that she had tried to keep inside her has made their way out. Somehow, after pouring everything out makes the heavy feeling inside her lightened.
'I have loved you back then.' she remembered Lisa had said. If she really loved her, she wouldn't have hurt her. If she loved her, she should have told her friends when she heard them talking on their usual hang out place on their school eight years ago. Lisa should've confessed to her about that dare earlier then maybe she could have saved her from the hurt and pain she went through. But sadly, she didn't do any of that. Now how will she believe that she loved her? She would never listen to any of her lies anymore. She had learned her lessons and won't be doing the same mistake twice. Not now, not ever!
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LISA'S POV
I found myself inside my parents house, I went there straight after I had a talk with Jennie. It hurts so much. I love her, but why can't she see that?
Yes, I may have made a mistake before, but how will I be able to make everything right if she's not giving me a chance to do it?
I strode towards the mini-bar and get myself a drink in a shotglass. I gulped the liquor all at once then pour another one and drank it all up again. My head fell on the bar counter. Tears started to formed in my eyes and I began to cry. When Jennie left me before I thought that was the most hurtful thing that ever happened to me. But I was wrong because it hurts even more to see her near but I can't reach her. She was so close yet so far.
My shoulders rocked and my cries transformed into sobs. Suddenly, I felt a hand patted my shoulders and I looked up. It was my father.
"Can I accompany you?" My father ask.
I nodded my head. Dad took a glass and poured a liquor in it, he drank before talking.
"Problem, Lis?"
I nodded while playing at my shotglass and poured myself another drink.
"Let me guess, heart matters?"
And again I just nodded. I can't trust myself to talk cause when I do I would surely starts to break down again.
"I remember the last time seeing you like this was eight years ago." Dad said.
"Yeah, and it's so funny to think cause I'm crying over the same woman, Dad. I'm so pathetic, right." I blurted out. I gulped the liquor from my shotglass before continuing. "She had changed, so much. She's far from the sweet and simple girl I used to know but I still love her like how I love her before. I offered her my name but she turned me down. And here I am so stupid, still forcing myself to her."
"Just forget about her, Lisa. There are other girls out there." Dad adviced.
"I've thought of that before but I just can't forget about her, Dad. I can't. I wanted to, but my heart only beats for her. My mind is full of her. I know that it was my fault why she went away before but I'm ready to prove my love for her if only she would let me. I really love her, Dad, so much."
"So you've finally found your one great love."
"I have, Dad. I knew I met her eight years ago but I guess I'm too late now." I said sadly. My vision blurry from tears
I felt Dad tapped my shoulders again. "If you love her then show her how you do. Don't give up even if she push you away for many times. Nothing is impossible for the person who has determination and sincerity. Show her you mean every words you say. You'll see, she'll believe in you someday." Dad said before leaving me alone.
My father's words kept playing on my mind until I get it, I laughed, why is am I so stupid? What I need to do right now is to think of ways on how I can make Jennie to believe in me and not spending my time crying like a loser and getting drunk.
