perfidia

chapter 4

It has been 2 weeks since I last spoke to Luke. 

I do feel awful for triggering him. When I was training to be a Nurse they told me it was important to not mention anything from the soldiers past life incase they had shell shock or anxiety attacks.

I shouldn't of even mentioned Cora, whoever she is. Something bad must've happened to them. 

My mind starts reeling off possibilities as I'm laying in bed, with raining battering against my thin window, it is very cold tonight.

The cold becomes too much to bear so I stand up and walk to my chest of small draws in hopes to find a spare blanket, they are itchy, not like the ones back home but I do not care at this point. I slide the draw open and find it empty. With a huff I tap my foot and think of what to do. I thought pops into my head of Lillian retrieving itchy brown blankets from the closet near 4D, maybe I could go and get one?

Just in my white ankle length nightie and slippers, I slip out of my bedroom door and head towards ward 4D. No one will see me so it doesn't matter, I can't imagine the shame of being caught in my n night wear so I will be quick.

I see the closet at the end of the hallway directly infrony of the entrance to 4D.

I walk quietly up to the door and open it seeing dozens of blankets. I pick up one from the top and the itchiness runs across my fingertips. Suddenly  a hand cover my mouth and my back is pushed against the door.

I gasp into the hand and before I can even look at the persons eyes they are lifting my skirt aggressively. 

"You have been dying for this haven't you Clive."

Frank.

"No!" I shout into his hand.

"Shhh! don't wake anyone up. I will just show you a good time then you can be on your way" he whispers as he starts to kiss me neck.

This can't be happening. I begin to cry as he takes his hand away from my mouth and grabs my neck aggressively. His slobber is all over my neck and he is grunting aggressively as he starts to grind his hips against me.

"I've waited too long for this, can't wait to feel you round me. Don't scream" I start to cry more, as he nearly gets my nightie round my hips. All of a sudden his body is gone off my weeping one and I look up and see Dr. Adair.

In embarrassment I quickly wipe my tears and cross my arms over my body.

Now Frank is on the floor with Dr. Adair and Lillian in front of me looking very concerned. 

"Adelaide are you okay?" Dr Adair says in a hurry, slightly out of breath. Did they hear me scream?

I look at them in shock and embarrassment. 

"Adelaide darling... are you okay? Are you hurt?"

With tears still in my eyes I just stare at them, not able to speak. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before. I really thought no one was going to hear me.

"Ade-" Lillian brushes her hand over my arm and I flick.

"Im fine may I go back to my room."

They look at each other than at me with pity, all whilst frank is still on the floor. 

Lillian gives me a tight smile and small nod, "yes darling."

"But tomorrow I need you to come my office so we can hear your side of the story" Dr. Adair says. The nerves came stronger then, I don't want to relieve this moment ever again the shame is too much.

I nod once and begin to walk off. As I am half way down the hallway I hear Frank shout "but she's a fucking tease walking round in her nightie, begging for it!"

Tears stream down my face as I pick up the pace. I get back to my cold, small room and lie down. I didn't even get the blanket. 

I just want to forget this whole night.