Join Me In Death

Chapter 5

Levis POV

Eren is on the verge of a complete panic attack. He's kicking and screaming as if someone is trying to kill him. It only strikes me exactly who he's panicking over when he cries "dad please dad no I'm sorry please don't hit me!" And hunches over sobbing. At that moment I swear I could feel my heart breaking into a million pieces. I reach over to try and pull Eren closer to me but he screams "don't touch me!" Not able to recognize me in his panic. "Erennnn. Ewennnnnn. Shhhh its okay I'm not going to hurt you." I coo in my softest voice. He looks over at me his eyes wide and his body trembling. "L-levi?" He whines his bottom lip quivering as he tries not to cry again. I slowly inch closer to him and reach out to gently touch his shoulder but he flinches away and lets out a loud sob. "Eren. Eren. My sweet Eren. What has he done to you?" I whisper sadly closing my eyes. I take in a deep breath and stand going to the kitchen to get him some water. I squat on the floor in front of him and offer the water. He takes it but can't drink because his hands are still trembling so badly. I gently hold his hand steadying him and he lets me help. He takes a small sip and hands me the glass and I sit it on the floor not letting go of his hand.

He leans into me and I wrap my arms completely around my trembling boyfriend whispering sweet nothings into his ear and promising him that I will always protect him. A promise I intend to keep. We miss dinner and I'm sure Ghriska has noticed but I would deal with that issue later.

Armin walks in after he finishes eating and greets us. Eren has almost returned to normal and he greets Armin back and even manages a smile small. Armin knows something's up but he ignores it and offers us cereal. "Eren do you feel like eating?" I ask him brushing a stray hair from his perfect face. His stomach growls loudly in response making him blush adorably and Armin laughs handing us two bowls of Titan Flakes.

I finish eating quickly and stand up beggining to gather my things. Eren watches me and asks "where are you going?" And pouts a little in the way that makes my heart flutter. I sling my bag over my should and I walk over to him purring "I need to be getting back to my dorm and I have to study for my next psychology test babe." He sighs and says reluctantly "okayyyy fineeeee. I'll miss you." I smile and peck his lips murmuring "I'll miss you too. If you need me I'll come back right away. And Armin if he asks for me and it's an emergency please send someone to come get me." Armin nods and says "will do. Thank you for taking care of ole Eren." Which makes Eren blush and Armin nudges him smiling.

I hurriedly walk through the halls skipping by classrooms and dorms. When I pass the second set of bathrooms I hear a loud voice behind me clear their throat and say "Good evening Mr. Ackerman. May I ask where you were at dinner tonight?" Shit. Ghriska. I calmly turn around to face him and reply "Good evening Mr. Jaeger. And I apologize for not attending dinner tonight. I was in the library studying for my next psychology test. I'm doing much better in that class and I intend to keep it up." His eyes narrow slightly and he says "well congratulations Mr. Ackerman on your studies. Perhaps you've seen my son Eren around anywhere?" I tilt my head and reply "no sir I haven't. I apologize." He nods curtly and walks past me saying "thank you for your time Mr. Ackerman." Over his shoulder. I roll my eyes and finally reach my dorm. I unlock the door and Erwin, my roomie, hops up and says "god Levi where have you been the past two days?!" I scowl and say "none of your business eyebrows. Just helping a friend." He looks at me for a bit and then asks "You mean Eren?" I nod and he continues "you shouldn't see him anymore Levi. All you're doing is getting him hurt. Why don't you focus on people you can actually be with and then you'd realize that more people like you then you think." I scoff and growl "what the hell are you talking about? Does Hanji have a crush on me or something?" I ask almost amused. Erwin closes his eyes and mutters "n-no...I do."

And then my heart stops.

I must have been silent for to long because Erwin sighs and continues "I've liked you for a really long time but you've always pushed me away. I still see you as a potential love interest for me but all you do is push me away. It's honestly like you don't even want to be friends anymore. Levi it fucking hurts. I want to be with you so bad. But you ignore me. Its not fair damn it! I don't understand why...And and I just..." He trails off his voice breaking and I sit in shock. What was going on. This can't be happening. I suck in air through my teeth and gently place a hand on Erwin's knee. He won't look me in the eyes so I gently grab his chin and tilt it up so he meets my gaze.

"Erwin listen. I am so sorry I've been such an asshole to you. I really don't want to lose you as a friend. You've been my best friend since forever but the thing is... you're just my friend. I don't think we could ever be more than that. I'm sorry." He lets out a choked sob and he asks weakly "b-but why. Why be with someone who you're not even allowed to see?" I sigh and answer "because I love him. I love Eren." And in that moment I could practically hear Erwin's heart break. And it killed me.