feels; k. tsukishima

- 𝓽𝓮𝓷

you woke up. everything was a dream. none of it was real. the only real part about it was the fact you knew akaashi and lived in tokyo with your mom. semi was your brother, still living with your dad.

tsukishima died from a crash months ago, yet you were still having dreams of your life with him to help yourself cope. each time you dreamt, it was a completely different way of meeting him.

you were starting to worry your friends and parents, especially your mom. she wasn't abusive. she actually did care about you, and she was worrying about you like she never had before.

she had gotten you in counseling to help you cope as well, but you didn't talk to her much. you kind of just froze whenever she talked about it.

you completely lost yourself. your room was a terrible mess, you were a terrible mess. you had stopped going to school, and you barely ate anything anymore.

you were terribly upset when yamaguchi called you and told you tsukishima was in the hospital. you immediately went there and sat next to him and his family the whole time.

you got to watch him take his last breath, all without remembering who you even were. that hit you hard, and you haven't been the same since.

you and tsukishima met through suga, and never really stopped talking. he asked you on a date and you said yes, and that was the beginning of your relationship.

a few months later, tsukishima died. you were so in love with him that it hurt. you have no idea what to do with yourself now, because he was all you had. you didn't really talk to anyone else except suga, who was also worried for your health too.

nobody knew how to help because you wouldn't let them. you wanted to go through this alone, and cope in your own ways, even though you would wake up drenched in sweat from your dreams.

you haven't left the house in months, and you shower once a week because you don't even have the motivation to do it.

tsukishima's death really hit you right in the feels.