ᴍᴄʏᴛ ᴀɴɢꜱᴛ ᴏɴᴇ-ꜱʜᴏᴛꜱ

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Dear Tommy,

They keep telling me it's not my fault. That I couldn't have done anything anyways, but I could have. I keep thinking that I've failed you, but I'm sure almost everyone feels that way. In a sense we have all failed you, me most of all. I hurt you. Maybe not physically but still. I could have done more. In that moment, when I held the power in my hands...side with Technoblade, or don't. I had agreed with you then...I was going to side with him for you. Yet in that moment, I held your trust in full. Your life. Everything that mattered to you I held in the palm of my hand, and I failed you. I took what you cared about, I took your trust, and I broke it. I was your best friend...and I exiled you. I know what you mean now...when You told me how bad of a friend I was. You were right Tommy...You're always right in the end. You told me Dream was bad, but I didn't listen. I should have listened. I should have done so much more for you. Everyone mourns your loss, but I'm not sad, I'm angry. I hate Dream, for what he did not only to our nation but for what he did to you. He was there, at your funeral I mean, and he cried. I wanted to kill him then, to end the suffering he caused, but I know I can't. Dream can bring people back, and so we must keep him alive. I hope your okay now Tommy.

Love, Tubbo.

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"Tubbo..." Ranboo stared at the letter in his husband's hands, his face sad. "I have to send it..." Tubbo breathed, not meeting the ender boy's eyes. "He won't read it Tubbo, He can't read it" Ranboo said softly. Tubbo squeezed his eyes shut, and his hands tightened, crumbling the sides of the paper. "Tubbo please don't do this to yourself, Tommy's gone now and we have to accept that-" "Don't you think I know that?!" Tubbo exploded, finally staring up at Ranboo with tears in his eyes. "Don't you think...I know?" His shoulders shook with sobs "I know...believe me Ranboo I...know" Ranboo couldn't hug Tubbo, he wanted to but He knew that isn't what Tubbo needed. Tubbo needed Tommy to be okay, but it wasn't possible. "He...Trusted me Ranboo" Tubbo broke down "He trusted me...with his life..and his beliefs and...and I failed him-" "We all failed him Tubbo" Ranboo resisted the urge to cry, it was always physically painful to cry. "Me most of all!" Tubbo shouted shakily "I exiled him! I sided with Dream! I left him! I did that to him Ranboo! I failed him most of all! I failed as the president, I failed as a comrade, and I failed as his FRIEND" Tubbo shook his head angrily "I was terrible to him Ranboo-" "You were on good terms-" "That doesn't make me feel any better! I was a horrible friend to Tommy...do you know what I said to him Ranboo? I asked him...I said 'am I not better off without you?' the answer is NO! I'm not!" Tubbo was shouting now. "He told me...He told me he felt the need to be my friend...but..but that I wasn't good for him and Y'Know what? He was right! Tommy was ALWAYS right!" Ranboo lowered his head "Tubbo-" "And if sending letters to him is the only way I can feel a sense of CLOSURE then that is what I will do! I'll do it until I drop DEAD if I have to! Because I'm not doing it for myself! I'm not doing ANYTHING for myself anymore! From here on out everything I do is for MY TOMMY!" With that he stormed past Ranboo, slamming the doors behind him.