Kidnapped by my brother (Harry Styles)

I hate you

I sat staring at the wall for god knows how long. I was mad at myself that I was too scared of needles. I could have fought back I guess but the boys are really strong though. I heard footsteps approach me and then stop. I felt there stare on me as I kept looking at the wall.  I didn't know who it was but I just wanted them to go away. 
"Jess-"
"Go away" I cut him off. Not wanting to look at him and even hear anything that comes out of his mouth. 
"Jess just listen-" he started off but I stood up and looked at him. 
"No you listen to me. I hate you I can't even look at you, you make me sick. You want to know why I hate you? Well I am going to tell you either way. You killed mum. Who kills their own mum. She was basically my life, she was my best friend and you took her away from me and I tried to save her but you wouldn't let me. She was my mummy. God knows what dad is doing without her or me. Yeah, they might have shielded me away from you and they may have not let me see you but you know that is at least better than being with a bunch of killers. Yes, I called you killers. I'm not stupid I see what you do on the news its everywhere. The girl who got raped and murdered and the family's house which you say accidentally caught on fire but no you set it on fire and you raped that girl. I cant believe you would do that. You then proceeded to drug me twice, the first time I dont even know what you used and the second time using a needle. And then you threaten me with a needle so I would eat. So know I will not listen to you Harry. I despise of you. I want to die. I want to die. I want to be with mum. I don't want to be here anymore. I can't take it" By the end of it I was screaming at him, all the boys were here and I had tears running down my face. I collapsed and huddled into a ball, sobbing. I heard footsteps coming towards me and arms pick me up. Who ever it was wrapped my legs around their waist and placed one hand under my bum. He then put his other hand on my head and pushed it towards his shoulder. I saw the curly brown hair and realised it was Harry. I started struggling in his grip hoping to be let down. I started to hit his chest and kick my legs but his grip was like iron. 
"Shhh.. C'mon Jess just relax. You are fine." I didn't listen to him and kept struggling. He started to walk around bouncing me up and down like a child. I started to feel tired and my kicking and hitting stopped. I was still sobbing though. Harry sighed. I felt like I was going to throw up. I was able to choke out the word bathroom and Harry carried me in their. He put me on the ground but held my waist which kept me standing. I threw up the last meal I had been forcefully fed to. He rubbed my back in a soothing way in which he had thought it would be. 
"Zayn?" I heard Harry yell out over the sound of my sobbing and vomiting. 
"Could you come here please?" Harry called out again. I heard footsteps coming closer. 
"Oh shit, Harry get her down to my office please."