Songhwa-ya ~
Looking at you, hoping you would asked me. Asked me to stay, to not going there. Not marry another girl.
You smiled at me saying all the good things you wish for my happiness on my wedding, but why i'm feeling painful about it ?
Sitting there on my chair, seeing you walks in hand with another man, how can i'm the broken one on my wedding day ? Lost again, with no surprise. Are you really happy now ? Why you didn't stop me ?
I can see your teary eyes. Is that a sad tears ? Or a happy tears ? Are we really not in the same page ? Did i shatter our dream ? Or was it only in my dream ?
I was genuinely wishing to stay close with you. But i know with works and marriage life, I couldn't. I love my wife and i love her more when Uju was born.
But was it my fault ? Did i really not love my wife enough ? That made her wants to get divorce. Am i not good enough ?
It was a week after my divorce got settled, that time when your name appeared on my phone, when you asked me to meet at our usual spot. But i know it's not only you who sits there. It's not our special spot anymore. And I know, we're not that special either.
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For the second time we're under the same roof. It's all coming back to me again, just like twenty years ago. Is it okay to fall for you again ? I can't help but wondering, do you ever feel the same way ?
How's Sokcho ?
It's great. The weather, the beach, it's calm. How are you ?
I'm good. Preparing Christmas with Uju.
I'm glad.
Are you coming here ?
I'm not sure.
It's only been ten days since i saw you. But waking up every morning and realize we're not in the same city anymore, not breathing the same air. I couldn't help but feel empty here. I don't wanna miss you like this, but i do.
I miss you.
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I could hear your breathing stop for awhile. I know you're not gonna say the same thing though i could see it, it's still breaks my heart. Your long sigh brings me to reality. That maybe what i said before just too much for you to take.
I may come to Seoul.
When ?
Before Christmas.
On Christmas's Eve ?
Yes.
Would you come to see Uju too ? He asked about you.
Sure. I miss him too.
Though i knew Uju really misses you, but why it sounds like i use him for an excuse to keep you.
Songhwa-ya, can i have you for a moment, because I'd live and die for moments that we stole.
