Never let go

The big questions

Zakariya's POV

Sana, Sana , Sana. She's so beautiful but I can't show her that I like her. I wish I could let her stay at my house for the night but that will definitely be a nono. it's cold and hardly anybody's out so that makes outside even more scarier. I just wish I could know more about her and why she's still here...

" Sana, I was thinking if you wanted to stay at my house?"

" Are you serious! You must be joking! I hardly know you and how could you ask such a stupid question?!"

I was offended. I know I shouldn't be asking her a question like that but we weren't gonna do anything anyway. Not after what happened...

" I'm sorry ok, you just look lonely."

" Me? lonely? I'm-I'm not lonely ok. I have a family and - and-"

" And what?"

" Nothing."

" It's ok... you can tell me."

" You won't understand."

" I'm sure I will. I have lots of problems with my life and stuff. I have to do stuff that I don't want to do and choices that I'm forced to make like...um-"

" Getting married to a complete stranger."

"What? That's crazy!" How did she know.

" I knew you wouldn't understand." she starts to grab her bags and looks likes she's going to leave.

I try to stop her and grab her hand gently staring into her lost brown eyes. Her eyes are tearing up and I'm not a guy who carries tissues around with me but luckily I find one in my jean pocket. I pass it to her and she's biting her lip, obviously trying hard not to cry in front of me.

" I actually do understand. lots. I had to marry a complete stranger too."

" what? You're joking!"

" Why would I be joking?"

" Wait... this actually happened to you?"

" Yeah it did and I had to get over it but it still haunts me to this day."

" I'm sorry but i just don't believe you."

" Don't be sorry. you didn't do anything.. But what can I do to make you... believe me? I've already fallen for you what else do you want me to do? I asked.

" What?! What are you talking about? Look ok... it was really nice knowing you but i really... really have to go now."

" No... please I'm begging you just stay with me. I know you don't want to hear it but you are the most beautifulest girl I've ever seen."

" I'm sure there are prettier." She smirks.

" Well I don't care about them... I care about you San-"

"Don't! Just stop! You haven't even known me for 24 hours. it's like... 4:26 am now so I have to go."

" Go where? Huh. Where are you gonna go?"

" I'll figure something out."

"Seriously?! Come here." I motion.

"Why?"

"Just come here."

She carefully walks towards me looking baffled her lips pouting.

" What? What is it you want." She asks.

" I would ask you the same question."

" Just get to the point." she says.

" What do you want Sana Ahmed? Where do you want to go? What do you want to be? Who do you want to spend your life with?" I asked her. I have to know the answer.

" Why do you want to know?"

" I don't want to know. I have to know."

" you already know what the answers gonna be."

" Maybe I don't."

" Well I do. I've made my mind up now and there's no changing it."

"Ok. let me hear what you have to say."

" I want to be a free 20 year old with no problems... I want to go... sleep
with you tonight considering that I have nowhere to go... I want to become a psychologist... and I...i want... to be with...you."

Those last words struck with me with love. I want to be with her and now I know what I want to do. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her.