Never let go

Chapter 2- the plot

When my mum calmed down I rushed back upstairs and started to throw everything everywhere. My emotions were mixed. I didn't know whether my period was starting or what but I felt like there was a big whole in my heart and I could never be replaced. Only by true love...i know how cheesy that sounds but that's what I actually felt like. I felt weak, angry, upset, nervous and lots of other things.

I took a deep breath and sat on my bed, my hands on my head gripping my hair as tight as I could, trying to let my anger out. I eventually became weak. My face crumpled and then my real emotion showed...tears. I cried, cried, cried and cried and prayed my Asr ( evening prayer ) prayer. Inshallah Allah ( God ) would answer my duas inshallah, inshallah, inshallah.

I stood up and started to walk around my room. I picked up everything I dropped and sighed shakily. Oh no I was about to cry again. hold it in...

"Sana, dinners ready." Mum shouted from downstairs. her voice seemed a little shaky and I could tell that she was trying to cope with all that was going on.

" I'm just coming." I said and looked in the mirror to see if it'd look like id been crying. My eyes were a bit red but I don't think mum would've suspected anything. I slowly walked downstairs and headed into the kitchen.

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After I finished my dinner i called my best friends Hana and Sheva to come over. They were understanding and I needed them to help me with something...

" No! No way am I doing that." Hana exclaimed glaring at me.

" Well, I'm in." Sheva said with a warm smile.

" Well at least one of you are... it's just that I can't do this with him. I've even forgotten his name and we actually haven't met in person. I just wanna be like any other teenage girl and not get married at the age of 18. I mean who does that? Why was I the one to get married out of all of the girls?" I asked. I just felt like I didn't know the answers to any of my questions.

" First of all life isn't fair, It's by Allah's will that your getting married if we even get to that stage and last of all your not the only one that's getting married. There are so many girls that don't have a say in the matter." Hana replied. She was one of the smartest girls I ever knew and a loyal friend too. She helped me understand things and she knew most of the Greek gods names off by heart. She wanted to be a fashion designer but her parents wanted her to be a lawyer, doctor... all the other stuff they want you to be. She was and still is truly amazing.

On the other hand Sheva, my other best friend was easy to talk too. She understood me and had a great personality. she wanted to be a lawyer and when I was sad she could always find a way too cheer me up. They were like my sisters and they actually are my sisters in Islam but back to reality.

" I'm sorry Sana but I can't help you do this. This is not right and the shaytan is probably whispering in your ear. You may think you want to do this now but later you'll be regretting it."

" How do you know I'll be regretting it. I'm only 18 years old and I haven't even
Finished school."

" Nothing bad is going to happen inshallah." Sheva said.

" So now your with Hana?" I asked confused and a little rejected.

" No I ju-" Sheva said before I cut her off.

" Do you know what? Just forget it. just forget that I ever mentioned anything."

" I'm sorry... I just can't help you runaway." Hana said with a worried look in her eyes.

Fine, I thought to myself. If none of you guys can help me I'll guess I'll have to help myself...

A/n
Hi guys I hope your enjoying this so far. My first chapter was really short so I thought id make this chapter much longer.

This is dedicated to my best friend
ElegantForever
She's a best friend you could possibly want!
Bye!
Have a good day and remember Allah (Swt ) is always with us.