Whatever It Takes

[TW] Stories and Explanations

** Subtle mention of anxiety **

Dahyun's POV

It was noon when we arrived at the resort. It was hot so it probably added to my irritation.

I hate it when I lose control. What happened to me? These kinds of things keep cropping up since Sana came into my life. In a short span of time, it feels like I'm suffocating when Sana's with someone else. Since I stepped into my office and saw Sana for the first time, I was conscious of Sana's every move.

Everytime Sana calls her, "Dahyunnie", it warms my heart. I was never a fan of public affection, I actually hate it, but when it comes to Sana, I always want to be near her.

I know that I don't have any right to feel this way, especially when I told her that I like Mina.

This is the exact reason why I never entered a relationship. It makes people act like an idiot. The first time that I wanted to belong to someone was with Mina. So why do I suddenly feel this overwhelming surge of emotions in the past days?

Sana was still clinging to me like a giant koala. I feel like I'm bearing the weight of two people. But more than that, I was really painfully aware of Sana's chest pressed against my arms.

We reached our room, and Sana released me when she felt that I was breathing too hard.

"Are you okay? You look weird." Sana's face was full of genuine concern.

See? This is what I'm talking about. She's not aware of her effect on people! She just goes around and hugs people!

"I'm fine." Then I face planted myself in the middle of the bed.

Sana followed me and also lied down on her side. Her hand is rubbing my back.

"Do you mind explaining your behavior downstairs?"

"I don't want to."

"Dahyun."

I rolled to my side and faced her. "I don't know. I just don't want someone else touching you."

"Dahyunnie, I know I am very affectionate, but I assure you that I know how to take care of myself."

Ugh. How can I explain this to her? When I don't even know how to explain this to myself.

"Can we just forget what happened?" I noticed how a stray strand of hair was on her face, so I tucked it behind her ear.

"Okay, in one condition."

My mind was sending me a signal. This is a trap! Abort! Abort!

"I want to hug you."

She didn't wait for my response. She pulled my hand and positioned herself inside my arms. My chin on top of her head, her face pressed on my neck and her hands on my waist.

"You don't have to worry about someone else taking me away from you."

I felt my body relax, and I felt my hand reciprocating the hug. This is the most intimate I've been with someone. Sure, I had experiences with sex, but those never have this kind of intimacy.

We stayed in that position for a short while, when suddenly my phone rang. I was about to break off the hug, but Sana only tightened her grip. So I tried to reach my phone from my pocket. I barely managed to open it and it was too late to realize what's happening.

My very red face with a person whose face was buried on my neck was not something that you'd normally see when on a video call.

"Hyun! Wha-- Who's that?" Shock was evident in Tzuyu's voice, her eyes were wide with the scene that she's witnessing.