Rubies & Emeralds (Scorose Fanfic)

XXVIII: For Now (Rose's POV)

A/N: I know I usually write in third person but this is in Rose's POV because... fun :D xP I miss first person okay?! And now you can actually know what's going on in Rose's head without all my statements :D Also watch the Colleen and Joshua video on the side (they're YouTubers in case someone doesn't know) :') Happy reading! :D ~RFM 

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..."Rose Weasley, I think I'm in love with you." 

Those nine words made my heart stop. I mean, not literally or else I would die but it figuratively stopped. It didn't even skip a beat. It just... jumped. And I could tell very well that it was out of fear and not out of... similar emotions. It was so hard to even say the word and mean it. Which was probably the reason I pulled away immediately, causing him to frown at me. It was a confused and lost frown. As if he didn't know what to infer from this. I don't blame him. Merlin, I didn't know what to infer from this. Did he mean it? We had only been together for... six months? Or was it seven? No. It was six. The thought of seven scared me. We had been together for... half a year already?! Was it possible to fall in love in six months? I mean, it took my parents six years to admit they liked each other so was it actually possible? Plus, we were only seventeen. And I wasn't even sure I was in love with him. Was I?

This shouldn't be so hard to figure out, Rose. The voice at the back of my head said to me.

Well it is.

But itshouldn't be. 

That's not exactly helpful.

Well who said I was here to be helpful? 

I rolled my eyes at the voice and realized that Scorpius was still watching me... waiting. For a response? What was I to say? I didn't feel the same way? It would probably crush him. Unless I did feel the same way and I just didn't know because I've never been in love. I mean, he makes me happy and isn't that what love is about? Being happy? 

Funny, I always thought love was about making compromises and not minding.

Not that I mind making a compromise for Scorpius but that was always my definition of love. I realized then that he was still looking at me and possibly wondering if his confession had made me go insane. Actually insane doesn't sound too bad right now. 

"Rose?" Scorpius finally said, bringing me out of my thoughts. I looked at him and his hopeful (was it hopeful?) expression faltered. He opened his mouth to say something but then shut it. I did the same. I don't know how many times this happened until Scorpius said, "You don't feel the same way, do you?"

"I... don't know." 

There was silence in which the only actions were Scorpius opening his mouth, only to discover that words were failing him. Finally he said, "You... don't know?"

"Scor I'm---" I started to apologize. 

"How the hell can you not know?" 

"I just don't! How do you know when you're in love!"

"You just know! Like how I knew! I just realized!" 

"And you didn't think a little heads up would be nice? Just to let me know that you were dropping the L-bomb?" 

"The L-bomb?" Scorpius started cracking up. I rolled my eyes but I couldn't hold back a smile either. 

"It's a thing, okay?"

"Sure it is." 

"Shut up." 

"Make me."

"Maybe I will."