my longest time updatinggg. two years omgg 😳
okayy so i honestly don't know what to say, but there's always some random night where i re-read this whole/half thing and literally watch myself change bit by bit it's crazy.
uhh i guess what this book doesn't know is that i ain't a virgin no more which is crazy. so much character development. I'm not super middle school cringy anymore buut I'm still a depressed/anxious bitch 🙄. just more mature, i understand more it still just sucks cause wtf ofc. I'm 16, finna be 17 in a month. crazy, omg i started this book when i was 13.
i have a job, ik how to drive, i have my permit and im saving up for a car now, just need my legit drivers license now so i can go and buy a friggin carr.
i want a cat oh and also, i mentioned him like once in this book but i said my mom has a boyfriend in one of the latest chapters and now they are engaged :/. kinda weird, didn't think it'd last this long. thought dude would be driven crazy by now but welp 🤷🏽
the more i read this book, the more i understand why i do not love my mom anymore. I've finally given up trying to please her and trying to get her to understand what she does and how it affects me. she'll regret it when she notices that she lost me. like she will never be forgiven unless it's legit sincere and she seems to not know how to do that, so it's her loss, im a great daughter and she lost it :(. too bad
it's gotten to the point where i could care less about her wellbeing or if she died. and if she does die randomly, i hope it's when im out the house and completely on my own.
anyways, i finally have my own room, yay. i bought my own tv, dresser, bed, mattress, a mini fridge, and my own mirror and decorative wall hanging thingy.
sad that the reason i started buying my own shit before getting my own apartment was cause I'd be partially okay if my mom were to randomly kick me out again.
oh and she did a couple months ago, not surprising. that was when i finally got out of my trance and stopped giving a shit about her.
OMG and biggest news of all, i did drop out and i have my ged 🥳
a lot can happen in two years huh lol
unfortunately, i am still lost and in despair 😄
it's just mental illness tingz
it'll feel a bit better once i have a car i hope :)
im soo different than before bro lol
but i be sneaking out and sneaking ppl in. not often but i do and it's scary but exciting at the same time
i should be updating more i hope and not randomly disappear lol
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Non-Fiction**** I started this when i was 13 so its super cringey the first 1-2 years and half, but bear with me, i was a sad, lonely middle schooler lmaoo **** basically just me venting or talking about my day :) (after this is original 13 y/o bio) I fangirl...
